26/12/2022
Dec 26th
In same place or perhaps more weight on. Can’t weigh myself to depressing. My father made a few comments that struck me.
He told me I will never loss weight and I do have a pretty face for a fat person.
I get were the comments come from but so want to prove him wrong.
Strange thing is I don’t identify as a fat person.
I some how have convinced myself I’m just a little overweight and hide it well in my clothing choices,
But, this is just not true .
I so want to be the version of myself I have in my head. I can see her so clearly but have no willpower and zero follow through.
It’s sad to me that my weight has been such a issue for me and I cannot figure out how to change.
Feeling so stuck and depressed.
