24/06/2025
Ahh grief, you storm of emotions.
And the only way out is right through it all.
Feel it to heal it
You do not get a say in whether you change. Loss demands it. When someone you love dies, the world you knew is gone, and the version of you that existed in that world is gone with it. With them. You are left standing in the wreckage of your old life, trying to understand how to move. Not even move forward, just to move.
This is what grief does. It forces change, even when you are not ready. You have to figure out who you are now. Certainly not because you want to, but because you cannot go back. And that’s one of the hardest parts.
You might not know who you are anymore. Things that once brought joy might feel meaningless. Conversations feel harder. You may pull back from people, or feel like no one understands you. That’s ok. This part of grief is disorienting. You are not doing it wrong. This is what it feels like when you are in between the life you had and the life you did not choose, but now have to live.
If you are here, I want to say gently... please, be patient with yourself. You do not have to have it all figured out right now. But yes, over time, you will begin to find pieces of yourself again. Maybe new ones. Maybe old ones in a different shape. The person you become will carry the loss with them, always. But they will also carry love, memory, and strength they did not know they had. You are still here. That matters. And you are allowed to take your time finding your way forward.