13/10/2025
Let this be a reminder. To do the things. To try the things. To let yourself blossom and expand, in whatever ways or shapes you feel called to, however that might look for you. Paint the wall, just because. Get that tattoo that your body says you need. Dye your hair purple at 43 because really, why not? As someone who lived most of my life trying to fit a mold, wanting to be liked and accepted, who thought it was important to meet some sort of perceived outside ideal or set of expectations, to not be too big or too loud, to not stand out or to make any sort of waves…allowing myself to become more *myself* continues to be a journey. I’ve learned I don’t love the feeling of makeup on my skin. I like stretchy and looser fitting clothing that I can move and breathe in — I don’t really value trends. I naturally move slowly — rushing or hurrying activates my nervous system. I need music like I need air and water. I love color. And twinkle lights. And a bit of whimsy. I’m slowly learning to love my body, and to allow it to soften into its desired shape. I’m learning to appreciate and embrace my big, beautiful neurodivergent mind. 🌺 All of this to say…live your life. Do the things that bring you joy. Allow yourself to be fully, unapologetically yourself, and to change and shift as you need to, as you feel called to.
“You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.”
- Wild Geese by Mary Oliver ✨