10/05/2021
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers and those longing to be mothers!
As I sit here and think about today, I want to tell you little story of how Satan almost stole today from me. You see this past year has probably been the hardest year of my mothering journey. In my walk in obedience I took on homeschooling, enrolled the 3 bigs in soccer, tried to continue to work, be the best wife, mom, friend and mentor that I could be all while battling adrenal fatigue failing in almost everything. Chase is working longer hours so the weight of home has fallen on me and utter exhaustion has set in. My quiet time had dwindled and satan was capturing my thoughts and took them straight up captive today!! I walked in and out of church in complete defeat! Chase and the girls begged to go to lunch and I quickly declined not wanting to say or do anything that would hurt my heart or theirs. You see today satan reminded me of every time I got upset, every time I said something that wasn’t in a calm tone, every time I focused on something other than my kids, he spoke words into my mind like unworthy, angry, tired, failing. I told Chase and the girls with tears filled up in my eyes that this Mother’s Day I wasn’t worth of being celebrated, that going to lunch to celebrate me was the last thing I deserved as I drove the car home, Lynnlee said I think we should pray mom all while the rest of the girls of course said sweet things over me. Chase hopped in the car and we started to drive still very reluctant, my soul sister called me, she could hear it in my voice, she quickly started to pray over me reminding me of how Satan works, how he truly comes so hard after the things we love the most. He wants to keep us in bo***ge and shame, he wants us to live in utter exhaustion, so we never live into our full potential in Christ. He almost got today(I write this with tears rolling down my face), but thank God that my husband, children and best friend could be used by God to make the day go the way it was supposed to!
My children are my absolute world and if you know me then you know my girls. They are what makes my heart beat, they fill my life with more joy than I can ever imagine. Obviously every day is not perfect but it’s everything I could dream of and more!
If you’ve read to this point I just want to remind you if you’re a mom or praying to be a mom, it’s the most sacred gift you will ever receive and the devil will come after that hard but always know God is bigger! Our children love us unconditionally and their little hearts just long to always be with ours. So today I celebrate moms just a little bit harder and pray they know how incredibly special they truly are and that Satan never gets to steal your day!!
