Kauai Mantra (2025)

28/04/2023

My home studio is closing their current physical space and I’m feeling all sorts of emotions…I’ve been holding space, teaching learning and growing and evolving and so much more! This place is a sanctuary and I am so grateful to have been a part of it! Let’s keep it going? Ideas!?

15/01/2023

A little excerpt of how 2022 was for me. Happy New Year
“I stand up and immediately sit back down. Looking around me I see the dissolution of my reality as I have been for the last several years. How did I get here? How did I end up in the exact place I had strategically avoided for what feels like my entire life? I had it all, I had everything they say you should have, everything I knew wouldn’t bring me happiness. Yet it was mine, the house, the husband, the 2 dogs, the cat, a decent job, good friends, and a loneliness that pulsed through my entire being. An unhappy restlessness that scratched and screamed from the inside until I could do nothing but initiate the burning of life as it was. I wept. I wailed. I took a shot of tequila and busted out my guitar that I hadn’t played in god knows how long. I sang, I wept, I felt, I knew. I had finally allowed myself to know what I had been hiding for so long. I was not supposed to be here. It had nothing to do with not deserving all of these amazing things. My house was epic, seriously such an incredible place, a lavish garden that we had built, a little sanctuary. But I also was tied to this house. Mortgage, bills, taxes, maintenance…it felt like a self-inflicted prison. I no longer felt I could even consider going anywhere because who would take care of everything? I realized that here and there is the problem. Why does it just have to be me? Why didn’t my husband understand the weight of this level of responsibility? I realized I had to go. I had to metaphorically speak burn it all down. So, that’s what I did. I started the fire and walked out while it blazed. As I sat there, I saw it all, I saw what it would mean to give it all up, and I chose the match and lighter fluid, because I’ll be damned if I will live a life that doesn’t bring me real evolution, raw human emotion, and feeling alive. Even if it’s hard. Hard I can handle, I’ve done challenging since I could crawl. What I couldn't do was stay stuck. I had no idea just how difficult and beautiful this would all be…”

26/09/2022

Hello 👋 I’ve been hibernating and thinking about everything and I love you all and this life is hard

25/07/2022

Missing goats! Got out near crossroads church in Kapaa. Please reach out if you see or hear anything! And share this post so we can get them back home safely!
Bryton Glover

13/07/2022

Guru Purnima. Full moon 🌕 of the guru. Guru is a remover of darkness. Anyone who has illuminated part of your journey and removed darkness, ignorance providing inspiration for your growth into a more awake version of yourself. Today I honor and give gratitude to all of my gurus in body and in the ether. I also acknowledge myself and my own inner guide for always showing up to the next opportunity for change and evolution. Taking time to reflect on how far I have come and looking forward to where this journey of awakening will lead. I honor the light in you, all of you! Remember not to fear the darkness for it is also necessary!

Special shout out to my teacher for guiding me over these past few years with expanding knowledge of yoga and Jyotish.

Jai Guru Deva

21/05/2022

I’ve started writing again…felt like sharing this let me know what you think.

04/05/2022

Life is for the living if you’re open to being alive. In this aliveness everything goes. All the feelings, the joy and the sorrow. The freedom and the suffering of the world. As I grow and expand I feel so much more deeply. There are times where this heightened sensitivity scares me…but what I’ve realized is that is my conditioning not me. Because to be Alive and Awake means to be fearless of pain. To be open to every opportunity and outcome because we can’t control it anyway. All we can do is move in the direction of our own hearts intuition, which is our souls direction of evolution. While listening to my teacher this quote really stuck with me, I literally jumped out of the bathtub to write it down 😂
“The individual who is not adverse to any outcome cannot be defeated. Somebody who is not resistant to any outcome is invincible. The aversion to any outcome comes from not having made intimate acquaintance with pain. When there is fear of pain, fear of Dukha is there then we are afraid of outcomes in the future. When we have made our acquaintance with pain we have matured as souls. We have gone through the Kali fear. Then Shani (Saturn, Shiva, the great teacher of detachment and truth) becomes an invitation to our ultimate potential.”
All the pain I personally have endured is not holding me down but in fact enlightening my soul. And this allows me to feel it all and to continue to also feel the joy and love that permeates all. For love is in everything if you can feel it. She is always there for she is what we are.

19/04/2022

Playing around and this little piece of my soul came through. I thought it was pretty and it shows vulnerability, something I’m working on doing more. I’ve realized a lot recently and one of these realizations is that I have not been truly vulnerable with most people. I think this is common so I’m not being hard on myself, instead I’m leaning into living life more openly because only then can we move truly from our hearts and create a safe place for others to do the same. Because we all need it, we all deserve it. So let me know what you think truly 🥰 from my heart and soul to yours

08/04/2022

Another favorite and oh so emotional lately…music really really heals my soul I hope it helps yours

07/04/2022

Mood.

06/04/2022

Singing and this song. This was my mom’s favorite song 🎵 when I get emotional singing helps me move through my heart as I think it has for most humans for eternity. Feeling musical today after a long time…I even dusted off my guitar after I don’t know how long. I get really shy letting my voice shine in front of people so I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and posting this anyway.
This song has been with me for as long as I can remember and it speaks so fully to life on so many levels.
I think it speaks for itself.

05/04/2022

Come join our Halani Yoga Collective] ohana for yoga on the east side! So many amazing opportunities to practice various forms of yoga! I’m excited to be able to share here on Fridays now 9:15-10:30a! Please note we are now sharing space with the playground! It’s a gorgeous studio. I hope to see you there! Please help spread the word and share with your friends.

Halani Yoga Collective] .houghtaling

28/03/2022

NEW CLASS OFFERING!! I am so excited to share that starting this Friday 4/1 I will be teaching on the east side! Join me .yoga.kauai for some kundalini flow! It’s been a long time coming and I hope to see you all there!
All levels welcome
9:15-10:30am
Physical classroom is at the gorgeous studio of
Donation based

Please share with any yogi you think would be interested ❤️

If you have any questions please reach out!

21/03/2022

3.20.2015 Yesterday marks 7 years being reunited with this sweet love of mine! First photo is from that time, the second from a boat in Costa Rica where we first met 15 years ago! And the others adventures in our love story so far! So much love, laughter, and crazy times we’ve both been through! The support and unconditional love gives me is unlike any I’ve ever known! So grateful and in awe of this amazing human! Also tomorrow is his birthday so give him a shout out!

Love to infinity Nick!

05/03/2022

Blast from the past! My uncle found this old article at my grandmas! Has me reflecting on how much has changed since then! This was the year after I graduated college. I received this amazing scholarship my senior year and the university did a whole feature on my story. It was essentially a story of how far I had come and how I was using my degree at the time to make a difference. It was the first time I ever had my story of growing up with bipolar extremely unstable parents and being the first to go to a 4 year college. What I different life I was living then! I was doing molecular research in a neurology lab spending my time watching mitochondria travel around drosophila neurons, recording amd analyzing data!! It was quite awesome but lab life wasn’t for me. And look at my short hair and glasses! What a cute little scientist I was 😂 and look at me now! Living my dream life in Hawaii practicing Jyotish, teaching yoga, meditation and breathwork. If you had told my younger self she could do what I’m doing now she wouldn’t believe it. But then again here I am! So believe in yourself and don’t be afraid, or rather do it even if you are scared, to reinvent your life into what your soul and heart desire! Live it for you and do it over and over if you need to! Life is here for us to make the most of it!

23/02/2022

I AM ENOUGH. I HAVE COME A LONG WAY. For all that need to remember this today. I started being hard on myself this morning paddling back in from surfing…from waking up predawn, doing my practice and making it to my favorite surf spot. This makes no sense I did more than enough. The good thing is I laughed at these thoughts. Because they are not me, they are ego centric conditioned thoughts. The kind that used to grip me all the time. So what happened when I laughed? I remembered this but still ego said then why do you still think that? Because I’m a human being. Because I do a lot of work and I’m still working and that’s part of life- being a little messy or a lot and allowing the chaos to exist as it is for what it is. Sitting in the restlessness even though it’s uncomfortable. Remembering again and again that I am enough just as I am. I am worthy of love for the sake of love itself. And so are you.

21/02/2022

SLEEP. 😴 When we get good quality sleep consistently our lives are better and easier all around! Our nervous system processes all the stress from our demanding days, our immune systems heal us, our consciousness goes into deeper strata of itself and so much more. Did you know that Sattva/Vedic meditation also give you this opportunity to release stress and experience pure being? In fact when you meditate consistently you will sleep better because of this! We are living in such an overstimulated time that often we have so much physical and emotional stress that sleep is disturbed and most of us don’t get anywhere near what we need! As a former insomniac I can understand this at such a deep level. Lack of sleep leads to anxiety, depression, mental instability, weakened immune system and so much suffering. One of the reasons I committed to my meditation practice 10 years ago was because I was beyond exhausted of feeling this way! After a few days of meditating, literally just a few I started sleeping like a champ and still do most nights. It changed everything! I became more and more adaptable to the needs of the hour and in tune with myself. I was more available for my friends and family, more productive in all ways, healthier and happier! If you’re struggling with sleep you are not alone and there is another way! The Meditation that I have been dedicated to sharing for 8 years now as well as learning to breathe in certain ways can help you and only take 20 minutes twice a day to do! That’s probably less than how much time you spend tossing and turning at night. I also highly recommend high quality pillows and body pillows for maximum comfort and no electronics around during bedtime. To learn more let me know! You deserve good sleep!

16/02/2022

FULL MOON IN LEO. Time to rise, time to ✨ shine, time to let courage move you from the heart! How does this affect you? It depends on where the moon is positioned in your chart, as well as where Leo is, and all the other signs and planets 🪐. Overall Leo has some broad reaching impacts, but to really harness the transitions of the moon and planets it is imperative to know and understand your own astrological chart. If you’re interested that’s what I do! I unravel and explain to you the complexities of your chart in a Jyotish (Vedic Astrology) reading. It is so powerful to understand your relationship to this universe we are all an intimate part of. To learn me comment below or send me a message!

Kauai Mantra