01/21/2021
I gained 13 pounds after having Covid. I’m not sure if telling you this makes me a good coach, a bad coach, a safe coach, a vulnerable coach, or just a “listen to this wild ass story” coach. But whatever, there’s a lesson in it for me.
I was working hard toward something this past fall and had ALL OF THE MOMENTUM going for me, then I got Covid at the very beginning of November and it changed absolutely everything. Not only was I simultaneously without electricity for 13 days, but it harshly impacted my business and my mental stability. After picking up a lot of broken pieces in mid November, I went into a depression that I’ve never experienced. I’ve honestly only ever experienced anxiety, and this wasn’t that. Needless to say, my therapist has been pivotal for me over the last 12 weeks.
I’m not repulsed by a 13 pound weight gain. I am not defined by it either. I also know that trading wine for water and cake pops for veggies probably has me down a few of those pounds. I haven’t checked or weighed recently. Right now it’s just where I’m at, until I’m not.
I’m a gym owner that experienced emotional trauma at 18 years older and 260 pounds, 30 years old and 159 pounds, and at 37 years old and 185 pounds. Fitness and health are much more than discipline and motivation. It’s more than “if I can do it so can you.” It’s sitting with our s**t, recognizing our coping mechanisms, and then navigating our way back to what feels good for us. Lifting weights feels good. Healthy nutrition feels good, too. And here I am.
I have started to see my clients in this light, too. They may not be body aware because of trauma. They may be nutritionally triggered because of trauma, too. This awareness has allowed me to be more than a “just show up” or a “just lift this” kind of coach. I see them. They know it, too.