Health Compass (2026)

04/08/2025

I am not afraid to admit I am a “Wounded Healer.” Someone who faces their own demons and uses the learning to help others. I believe this to be the most powerful form of alchemy. I change and transmute, you change and transmute.

Because I have done the “legwork,” I can confidently say that Shadow Work is the most potent and effective way to change: “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate” Carl Jung.

Whether you are struggling with money, health, relationships, transitions, Shadow Work can help.

In this 2 hour Interactive Workshop you will learn how to stop being your own worst enemy and learn to be your greatest comfort and cheerleader with a process you can repeat again and again anytime you sense self sabotage or subconscious interference.

Thursday July 7 (just in time for Lions Gate Portal)
7pm est/5pm mst
online & recorded

Link in bio or www.anniestrout.com/workshop

16/05/2025

No matter how dark things get, there will always be a reprieve. A moment when things come together, even briefly. A time where you realize, all of this was worth it.

The healing path is winding and non linear. Treat yourself, take care of yourself, even if it’s not in the socially acceptable way.

For me it’s been 2-3+ years of intense excavations of all kinds. Feeling like s**t more often than not. Bioressonance appointments, Kambo, restrictive diets, not being able to see friends or go out as I would have liked.

But when our heart becomes more full, our mind and soul can heal.

This trip to South Africa healed me in so many ways I could not have accessed alone. This is the value of shared experiences like where we heal each other through art, nature and connection.

So yes I will remember and cherish a moment of carb loading, heart shaped sandwiches and unforgettable friends.

24/02/2025

We drink, we drug, we eat, we distract, anything to numb the pain, pain that we may not even be aware of. Something comes online. Another version of ourselves. An internal warmth. A sense of connection to the outside.

Because all we want is to not feel alone. Not “be alone”, verb, action. We want to stop feeling “I AM alone.” Noun. Description. Permanent state.

Because no matter your childhood trauma, you learned that happiness, fulfillment, love, existed from other people. Your connection to your true, loving self, was severed or interrupted. Usually the shame that comes with trauma furthers that disconnect, believing we aren’t even worthy of receiving anything.

When we lack this sense of self, of self love, we don’t feel safe. We don’t feel worthy. We feel fundamentally different and disconnected. So we numb. With avoidance attachment we pull back from everyone to protect ourselves. With anxious attachment , we desperately seek connection any way we can. It will look different for everyone. But somewhere along the way we lost the sense that we were enough, that we could provide anything we needed to ourselves. That we were always going to be okay. And that connection was safe, not something to be urgently grasped at or run from.

Some of us have done the work as adults that we believe in ourselves, at least cognitively. But checking in with those deeper parts of the psyche, does being with yourself feel like enough? If not, you’re projecting it onto life somewhere, and continuously making the choice to come home to yourself, not from a state of loneliness, but from a state of real true fulfillment, can make the difference between happiness and constant struggle.

31/07/2024

After 21 months of “wtf” with my health, I feel better. After 16 years of “I’m sick”, I don’t feel sick anymore.

Am I still tired sometimes ? Yes. And I still healing? Yes. Is there still more work to do? Yes. But I’m finding myself wanting to work more. Being more helpful. Feeling desire to exercise.

8 years ago I experienced a spontaneous remission of Interstitial Cystitis, and ever since then have stood largely alone on my soapbox that trauma and our mind/set cause illness.

While working with my signature healing process one month ago I uncovered the secret of why I had been sick all this time.
It validated my entire experience, and why this is my work.

Trauma is the answer. Your beliefs are the answer. Healing, facing your shadows, feeling uncomfortable, trying something new. These are the answers.

As long as you are willing to face yourself, no matter the consequences, you will find a way to feel better again. Doesn’t matter if it’s your health, your mental health, your relationships, YOU have the answers.

If you want to go this deep, DM me for more information on how to get started💜

23/04/2024

Trigger warning: There are those of us who want to change, and those who don’t. Those of us who are ready to change, and those of us who aren’t. Those of us who need to change, and others who don’t.
Figuring out where you fit in this puzzle comes first.

But if you’re the one who wants, needs, and is ready- if you’re the one who’s life is forcing your hand, shining a spotlight where you’re messing up. You’re the black sheep of the family, healing the intergenerational trauma. You’re the one with “bad luck” or way more emotional s**t than seems necessary. In this case, you can run as long as you want but it’s not going to help or change anything. And you know it.

After being on a healing journey for 6 years, since my body forced my hand, I always thought I just wasn’t trying hard enough, or needed to know more. And that’s partially true. But since coming into inner child work, specifically through my advanced protocol, I’ve realized that you just cannot heal without digging all the way down to the foundation, and creating a new one. That’s why we struggle , or give up, because we aren’t pulling out the root, so things never really get better.

It’s begun to annoy me all of the healing messages I see all over social media. Let go! It’s time to change. Surrender. Take back your power. Ok sure. Some very potent medicines or therapies can help you access that, sometimes. Or maybe for some people it’s easier, they don’t need to dig out the root. But if you’ve been struggling with the same issues your whole life, we have to go deep, and get VERY SPECIFIC. And that’s what I’m offering now. Address everything you’ve never understood. Clear a new path. Rebrand your whole life. For some of us it’s the only way. Book a free consultation to learn more, link in bio. Pricing based on income.

19/04/2024

Whatever you’re resisting, whatever your ego says “no” to, is the medicine you need.

Not a soft, body, illogical, intuitive no. An automatic, impulsive ick “no.” That’s the ego.

You don’t have to do it the way most people do. Or in the way your life offers it to you first. Get creative, problem solve, face the resistance / do the thing in a way that resonates with your soul.

The obstacle is always the way.

16/04/2024

The last 8 months has been a gauntlet of healing. Emotional, physical, spiritual, financial, energetic. If it weren’t for knowing how many peoples lives I’m going to change, I probably would have rather not. Since creating my signature inner child protocol last year, I’ve been deep in that realm. The place where everything that made us who we are lives. The wounds we remember, and many that we don’t. Others that we hide from. Seems I’ve been in inner child initiation. Finding the layers upon layers of wounded parts and beliefs. Each of them essentially the same, but stored differently in the body, and expressed differently in emotions, behaviors and reality. I’m unworthy. That was the first. Thought I was done! Hells no. I’m not important. I’m not enough. I’m unloveable. I’m unsafe. I’m bad. I don’t deserve love. It’s honestly shocking how someone with an objectively great childhood and privilege can feel this bad about themselves. But here we are. I have a whole new toolkit of badass, life changing ideas to share with people are who sick of their own bs. Link in bio.

14/04/2024

If this handle looks unfamiliar, it’s because me, Annie from Maine, has landed on her true calling as a light worker. Liberating the inner child. Isla means “island” in Spanish. This is how our inner child often feels. Isolated and alone. It also has a positive connotation, as it is the spiritual name that came to me during an episode of deep healing. I am also a Ta**us Sun (earth), and Pisces rising (water), and so it matches my energies. I have spent much time in isolation over the last 8 months doing intense inner work, and have some exciting new skills and opportunities to offer both online and in person. Schedule a free consultation to learn more, link in bio.

25/07/2023

You can’t just want to change. You have to be willing to change. Although they sound the same, there is a significant difference.

Wanting to change is focusing on no longer experiencing discomfort and consequences of the feeling or behavior. You want it gone.

Willingness means facing even greater discomfort, a new way of being and feeling and acting, without really understanding what’s going to happen. Usually some good changes, and some perceived negative ones.

Willingness means, “im willing to resist the temptation of being my usual self”, indulging my usual feelings, and giving up the protection and avoidance they afforded you.

This shadow work, leaning into your resistance, seeing your behavior and feelings from a more objective or “third party” like view, is crucial in overcoming this aspect of yourself.

This often means shifting your perspective from blaming others to blaming yourself, not in a judgmental or critical way, but seeing that you are an active conspirator in this behavior you say you hate.

It also means increased awareness and compassion for this shadow, your inner child, who clings so tightly to this protection, and gently coaxing it along. I often use the metaphor of treating your inner children like a garden inside of yourself, that need to be watered, hugged, listened to, and not just when their upset, but often.

This is the deepest work we have, seeing the dark, stubborn, yucky, self inflicted pain we cause. My best resource for starting this work is Existential Kink, by Carolyn Elliot.

Change is on the horizon, but you have to claim it, instead of just want it.

30/06/2023

Show the universe that you are not afraid, and it will reward you ✨🌈💕

08/06/2023

WTF TO DO (5/5
Shame - this can be so omnipresent that you don’t even recognize it. But if you ever react with insecurity, defensiveness, or blaming yourself, it is surely there. Start to become aware of it. I feel that every time we have a negative reaction to something we are in our inner child. Reflecting on childhood experiences, especially negative ones, can give you a clue to your triggers and stories. Be very aware of your inner monologue.

Self Sabotage- write down every way you sabotage what you say you want. You don’t have to stop them all cold Turkey, but you need awareness. Acknowledge that you are addicted to these habits/feelings/ thoughts, even if you hate them.

The victim- acknowledge where you don’t take ownership, whether big or small, direct or indirect, conscious or subconscious, for what you have created. Look for ways that this works for you in life. You get to be the nice one, you get to be jealous, you get to be the one people pity (even if you hate it). Studies have shown that many people with chronic illness or cancer admit to getting out of something or receiving attention and pity by becoming sick. Each time you go there, pivot towards empowerment and ownership, instead of looking for attention.

External Validation- what do I do in life to feel validated, to get attention, to distract myself, to feel good or proud of myself from the external. Many of us people please, or even gossip to get a feeling of superiority or being needed. Write down the habits you want to engage in less, like checking your phone or social media excessively, over scheduling yourself, saying yes when you should say no, etc.

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06/06/2023

EXTERNAL VALIDATION (4/5)
Now that we feel bad, We have an excuse to ask for more ATTENTION!! Having something bad happen/feeling bad so we can get validation is a tale as old as time. It’s actually one of the functions of depression- people will see you need help and give you more care (theoretically at least). We can guilt, persuade or feel legitimate in asking people to give us attention because we are the victim/having a hard time.

Everything from social media to people pleasing to anxiety is about external validation. It’s biologically programmed to keep us alive (rather than be cast out of a community) and ITS EVERYWHERE. Often we are trying to fill this pit of invisible shame. The inner child says please tell me I’m enough/wanted/good. Nearly every time you reach for that phone you’re looking for someone to show you that you matter even if it’s the tiniest Microdose of validation you can imagine (Someone wrote me about work, or they watched my story! Barf lol ).

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