26/02/2025
My Journey to SHIV…through SHAKTI
For as long as I can remember, I always had this restless feeling, a longing deep within me for something truer than what I was showing the world… it was almost like a pull towards something greater but had no idea what it was or how to find it...
When Shakti entered my life, she wasn’t just a concept but an energy that awakened something deep within me – a force so strong that it was impossible to ignore…yet I did.
You see, like most of us - I had grown up in a world that told me to suppress my emotions, hold back my power, and fit into society norms... and for those that know me you would have known I was never the type of person who could be put into a box. Yet, despite that, I still ended up placing myself in one…all in the name of fitting in and being accepted.
For years, she whispered to me that it was okay for me to step out of my box, to let go, to surrender, to stop fighting…stop fighting against myself.
Yet, I didn’t listen…I still ran.
All she wanted was for me to confront the untamed part of myself - the part that wasn’t afraid to feel deeply, to embrace vulnerability, and to express all the emotions I had kept buried... emotions I was more than happy to just leave untouched.
Eventually…she pushed me to a point where I couldn’t run anymore, she placed me in a position where I had no choice but to STOP, to PAUSE and to SURRENDER…
It was then that she guided me to face the parts of myself that I had previously ignored. She taught me that real power doesn’t come from control - it comes from flow. True strength isn’t about holding everything together but about embracing both the chaos and the calm. ..her energy was like the wild force of nature - the storm that comes in…yet also clears the way...
Through all this - I still felt lost, I was still unsure of how to make sense of all the internal shifts that were happening...and although my external world was exactly what I had always wanted in life, there was still a deep yearning within me for stability, for peace…
…but let's also be honest here – her energy is not one for the faint-hearted. She doesn’t ask for permission, she demands to be felt, to be embraced, while in the same breath also burns away the old, the comfortable, and the familiar.
I remember one evening whilst meditating - i was so deeply immersed in the warmth of her chaotic presence, and suddenly it happened. The shift I was longing for happened...
I felt the ground beneath me shift and at that moment I knew...I knew I needed to let go of my need to control and just surrender…and as i did, i felt his presence... not an external force, but an inner stillness…
It was then that the wild force of Shakti, which once felt overwhelming, was now anchored in Shiva’s stillness. It was like the storm inside me, once so chaotic, was now held gently by Shiva’s awareness. His stillness didn’t suppress Shakti - it gave her a place to thrive, to be fully expressed without losing her essence and the more I sank into Shiva’s presence, the more I realized that his energy wasn’t cold or distant - it was a deep, loving embrace that held all of life, without judgment.
There were moments when I doubted myself, wondering if I was ready for all the transformation Shakti had awakened. But in those moments, Shiva’s calming presence was there, reminding me I was enough. He wasn’t asking me to be perfect. He simply asked me to be - to accept both the highs and lows of my journey.
That’s when I began to understand that accepting Shakti wasn’t the end of my journey; she was just the beginning of something deeper…my journey to Shiv.
Now, I see that my journey to Shiv was always through Shakti - not just a path of devotion, but a journey of self-discovery. Through Shakti, I found the courage to step into my own power, and through Shiv, I found the peace to hold it with grace. My journey to ShivShakti was and still is, in essence, a journey to my own wholeness, a journey to embracing both the fierce and the gentle aspects of myself.
And so, as I continue to walk this path, I carry both Shiv and Shakti within me - the stillness and the movement, the divine masculine and feminine...the epitome of unconditional love.
They are my guides, my protectors, my reflection, and my truth. And through them, I have come to understand that the journey itself - the unfolding, the chaos, the peace…is the destination.
On this sacred night of Maha Shivarathri, may you too be blessed by finding the strength to destroy the illusions that hold you back, and let this night be a reminder of the infinite power that lies within.
🔱OM NAMAH PARVATI PATAYE, HAR HAR MAHADEV🔱
🔱💙❤️🔱
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Neri
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