02/08/2023
There was a time in my life where I use to attract envious people into my circle, it didn’t always reveal itself in an obvious way either, sometimes the relationship would begin with mutual admiration for each other, then the more I shined my light, the more this person would feel intimidated and/or the need to compete with me. There have been times where people have outright told me to be less of Niharah in some way or another, because my light is too bright.
I began to ask myself the question of why this is, and is this a reflection of my envious nature?, though I’ve never felt envious or the need to compete with anyone. Quite the opposite actually, I’ve always made it a point to uplift others, and highlight/compliment that which I find unique and beautiful about them.
So how was I participating in this, how was I allowing this to happen over and over again?. Each and every time I let someone else’s envy, make me shrink and be less of myself, I was making more space for the envy to come into my life. Even if it was in the smallest of ways, every time I dumbed myself down, in a romantic relationship or friendship, the end result was the same.
This became more and more clear to me, the more I looked within for the answers, instead of asking “why me?”, “why are they doing this to me?”, deciding that I’m responsible for each and every encounter that crosses my path, good or bad, and that I chose these lessons for my highest good.
With that being said, let Women’s Month be a reminder that there is enough light, for us all to shine equally as bright. And please! Let your light shine! The world is waiting!
~feeling out loud~
