26/12/2018
My word (more like phrase) for 2018 was: SIMPLY SHOW UP.
I didn't put any pressure on myself to have to pump myself up and produce an extroverted Bernice or to be a happy, hand shaking, sales-y, lead the conversation person but to INSTEAD just say yes to life choices/things/events and attend them no matter whether I talk to people or not.
And boy was it a year of attending things and showing up for things!!!!
HOUSE RENOVATION: which included fetching and carrying painters, builders on-site meetings, planning, sorting and decision making of every kind from paint colours to window styles, cupboard and counter styles, and which walls to bash down etc...
GOOD FRIENDS WEDDING: Maid of honour which included bridal shower, wedding dress shopping, brides maids outfit shopping, shoes, hair, nails, make up, bride chats and advice, many car trips, and wedding day duties.
MOVING HOUSE: This happened a week or two before the above mentioned wedding and I couldn't have done it with out my sister in law and mom in law (they kept me sane)!!! Many many many boxes packed and carried, old house cleaning, pet safely relocated to new house and unpacking and sorting at the new place.
OVER SEAS TRIP: Many nights googling, searching and planning, ticket shopping, accommodation booking, paper work and visas and passports (passports and visas took much filling out, sorting and securing -sounds so easy but wasn't as quick as it takes to type this out).
Packing of clothes arranging of house sitter etc...
Showing up and trying to go with the flow on trip as much as possible (remember foreign place and introvert = a little stressed but everything worked out!)
WORK STUDIES: a slight change in work, still in social media but studied and became even more relevant in facebook advertising etc... (many hours of note taking and practice)
FUNERAL: My dad passed away this year. Many hospital visits, family meetings in hospital coffee shops and being present at a large funeral of people (and trying to keep myself together) easier said than done!
OUTCOME : AND HERE WE ARE!!! I showed up to all of this and so much more! There were little things I showed up for too which are little blimps in the every day life, parent life, wife life, as well as daughter and friend etc... BOY am I glad to be on the other end of everything this year. I attended and SHOWED UP even when I didn't feel COMFORTABLE, even when I DIDNT WANT TO and even when it WASN'T EASY!
Whats next I haven't a clue but I know I can show up even when its hard and just stand there and be polite.
#2018