25/07/2024
Part 1
Life’s been too busy lately.
A few big things have happened in my life lately that have got me questioning where I’m at, what I want and what’s important to me.
I feel like life’s too busy. I feel like 6 months have gone by and I still haven’t done some of the things I said I would do, see people I want to see, prioritize more love and joy, prioritize being better.
“What’s being happening, how are you?” I ask
‘Ughh soo busy….’ Is all I hear now when I ask people how they’re going. It’s the new way, we all slowed during COVID because we had to, and now it’s like it never happened and we’ve forgotten to live life slow, steady and IN it.
I feel like there’s either too much on or too much to worry about or too much on my list of things. I was recently talking to a friend and described my family’s last year as ‘organised chaos’ and they agreed, theirs too.
Is this normal? I’d say it is for lots of families
Is this how it’s supposed be? I’m not so sure
Is this how I want to be? No, it’s not
My Dad was recently very very sick. I lost 15+ years with him as a young adult, and I don’t know why it’s okay that being so busy is a good enough excuse to not see him, my family and friends more often. The people that actually make my life full and fun.
It got me thinking, am I busy because I want too many things? Am I busy because society makes me feel like I need all these things? What are things that are actually important to me? What could I take off my list?
And so, I’ve started. To take some things off my list.
I am recommitting to being, and less about the doing.