03/05/2026
I keep seeing mother’s day trends, and while they are filled with love, they also bring up reflections for me. I’ll always have the utmost respect for mothers, truly the most powerful humans to walk this earth.
But it takes me back to when I first found out I was pregnant. It wasn’t exciting, it was terrifying!
I said “f**k” more times than I could count, and thought, followed with: how can I do this? How can I raise a child in this world, in this situation, with this person? When I found out it was a girl, my fear grew. I never wanted her to grow up and think that the way I was treated was normal or that this is what love looks like. Absolutely not.
I didn’t get any congratulations or people happy for me. There was no celebration. Just the question, do you really want to have a child with this person? Could I handle doing it on my own because thats what will eventually happen.. to which i had already felt prior to falling pregnant.
The whole pregnancy was isolating and filled with fear, from health scares to being monitored every week, to preeclampsia, to giving birth during lockdown without the support I wanted. It was tough and not my ideal situation, but it also showed me how much I could handle on my own, mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually.
It was a wild experience, one that shook me to my core, but it taught me something so so powerful:
I could literally do anything in this world with the right mindset and breath & that is something I carry with me every day!
Because I can do hard things & I love being a mum and was meant to be a mother!