15/05/2024
Do you have a child who triggers you?
When i look back to my relationship with my dad i always said "me and my dad argue because we are too similar"
My dad and I used to butt heads so much when he was earth side and i could never understand why. Was it me? Did i do something wrong?
It wasnt until i did this work that i realised that my dad was protecting me but while he was protecting me from what he knew about the world, trying to give me a better childhood and fix all the parts of his childhood he wasnt happy with by being 'overprotective' 'saying no' 'showing me how to be dependant' i started to rebel, and when i rebelled i feel this scared my dad because he had his own childhood wounds that he didnt want to be repeated with me, which i feel in those times he seen himself in me and 'cracked down harder' to ensure he was giving me a better childhood. what it boils down to is he was DOING THE BEST HE COULD WITH THE TOOLS HE HAD and his conditioning and childhood is what my conditioning and childhood reflected.
All parents have parts of their childhood they loved and parts they despise and want to do 'better' for their children its within this that we as parents try and 'create' the childhood we longed for without listening and understanding our children individual and what they need.
My eldest reflects and mirrors me so much. She is my trigger but being my biggest trigger she also is my biggest lesson and goodness me have i learnt from her. I believe she was some authority figure to me in a past life. The thing i have learnt and is trying MY BEST to do for her is parent her like she is my inner child. she has so many similar challenges in her life that i had as a child and when i feel like i have lost control and don't know how to parent her because she is strong willed, stubborn and follows the beat of her own drum, in these moments i ask what did i NEED as a child and how can i parent her that helps her NEEDS?
and this is ME DOING THE BEST I CAN WITH THE TOOLS I HAVE.
Generational trauma, conditioning and inner child healing will always be there just in different forms but deep down the same patterns repeating themselves. By doing this work, you not only break some patterns but you also teach your children how to break some more patterns who then teach their children to break more patterns and slowly over generations the healing becomes more and the trauma becomes less, but it starts with YOU!
Know you are not alone, parenting is hard, healing while parenting is hard, but the reason its hard is because you want the best for your child and to me that's a pretty amazing parent. Your inner child also deserves the healing and acknowledgement so while you be this amazing parent to your children also be the amazing parent to the little person inside of you.
WILL YOU BE THE CHANGE YOUR GENERATION NEEDS BY HEALING YOUR INNERCHILD AND GENERATIONAL TRAUMA?
So much love to you all, be kind to yourself, healing isn't easy but it's so rewarding love Kyra ✨
