Hazel's Journey to Betterment

10/06/2024

I have really learnt to not feel guilty for having a quiet rest day and listening to my body. So often I pushed through, ignoring my intuition and ended up in more pain, sicker for longer and just overall much worse. Being able to know when to pump the brakes on all the things is so important.

Take those few hours, day or however long you need WITHOUT guilt. We really are only here for such a short time, do what you can to enjoy it!

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~ Beautiful art by - The Latest Kate ~

03/06/2024

Life is so craaaaazy at the moment. My energy levels are like a roller-coaster and I am still trying to figure out why.

The past few days I have been in discomfort from what I think is my endometriosis flaring up. I'm not too sure though because it's come out of no where.

I had a wonderful visit to my old workplace last week and am going to be heading back there as a casual. I feel grateful for the opportunity as it sure will help financially and allow me to study for a career change.
I had a lot of self doubt and negative self talk around this. Words like "failure" and "heading backwards" came up, but I was able to reverse it and see it for what it is. A lovely gesture from ex boss and a great way to get back into work, in a place I know very well and feel comfortable in.

Dave and I said today that we feel hopeful the next half of the year is going to be more positive. I am going to roll with that! I really want us to make a vision board together, it's on the list of things to do 🙂

I hope you are all doing well.
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28/05/2024

Its a long one, but explains most of my challenges the past 17 (not 15) months 🙂

22/05/2024

I'm so freaking nervous about posting videos, but pushing out of my comfort zone is good.

05/05/2024

PETS!

I don't know where I would be without our 2 kitties. They bring so much joy, and are also good for your health!

My whole life I have had pets. Cats, dogs, cows, chickens, horses and even a mouse at one point! They have always been a source of calm for me, and they instinctively know when you're having a tough time.

Our cat Nalah does not leave my side when I'm not so well. She will quite literally follow by my feet everywhere I walk around the house. If my husband or I are sick or in pain she is there, with a look of concern and comfort.

Tander on the other hand is more of a protector, giving space while keeping watch. He is very much a guardian cat.

I dream of owning property and having all kinds of pets! Until then, I am beyond grateful to have our 2, and often think about those who can't have them or have had to surrender ones they had.

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02/05/2024

Here are some things I like to call "mood breakers". The things I like to do that can help myself feel better and sooth my soul.

Listen to music (especially acoustic songs)
Spend some in the back yard lying on the grass. I LOVE this, grounding is so important when you are overwhelmed. It also gets me doing natural mindfulness.
Go for a walk or bike ride.
Read a book.
Paint or draw.

These are my go toos, and important at the moment, they are all FREE!
What are your go toos when your feeling a bit blah?

01/05/2024

Here's how my Day went (it was one of those days).

After being unable to turn my brain off and laying in bed most of the night running through different life scenarios, what ifs, stressing about Dad, me and, well, the world in general, I managed 3 hours of sleep. I then dragged my tired ass out of bed to go see Dad, stopping by the nursing home on the way. I gave the staff an update and anyone who knows me well, knows I hate talking about medical stuff in detail. If it's my medical stuff it's all good, but not others. In true Hazel fashion I started to feel very light headed. I could feel the wave coming, my eyes went blurry and I quickly but politely ended the conversation and managed to make it back to my car without fainting. WIN! Haha!

In hospital Dads delirium was in full swing, though he did manage to comment on my newly coloured hair hiding all my grey. Always keeps his sense of humour! He seemed ok so I left feeling comfortable.

Came home, sat down for a bit and then headed to physio only to find out I missed my appointment by half an hour (hello brain fog!)

I then received a phone call from a nurse telling me Dad was going back to the nursing home this evening, and after expressing my concern about him going back to night staff and perhaps it can wait until tomorrow morning this is legit word for word what she said "ah yeah, we need the bed". WTF?! My reply was something along the lines of "are you serious, did you really just say that? So what, my Dads wellbeing means jacksh$t because he's elderly?!" She then laughed....laughed! Well you can imagine my rage, though I kept most of it inside. Seriously, this BS has been going on for 15 months.

So tonight, I'm exhausted. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I have to say though, I have the best emotional support cat. She camped at the bathroom door while I cried in pain in the shower.

Today was one of those days. Tomorrow will hopefully be better. That's all you can do really, look ahead with hope in your heart.

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PS - tried to record a video but my cats decided at that very moment it was time to play and tear around the house 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

29/04/2024

Hi, I'm Hazel. I created this page to share my life's up and downs and hopefully inspire along the way.

There are so many life coaches, spiritual people who sell and promote their experiences and platforms AFTER they have been through all the crap. So effectively they are talking about their life (a lot of the time) in past tense.

So this is where I wanted to be different. Of course I too will be sharing past experiences, but I want this page to be a lot of the NOW.

I promise to be as raw, open and honest as I can be. I will be sharing things I know have helped me in the past, as well as anything new I find.

So welcome, please share and interact because by doing so you could be helping someone too.

I will post a video shortly introducing myself a bit more.

🙂