09/08/2024
l used to think I was too complex to be metin my various personalities. I know I need variety, excitement, friendship, lightness, adventure, and interesting conversations. I know when this isn't present, it can feel quite suffocating for me. I also have learnt that a lot of people who meet me in this weren't meeting me in my depths, my deep intimacy, passion, emotion, and embodied wisdom. For a while l thought that maybe ľ'm "too much", and then recently it occurred to me that if l've learnt to integrate these parts and have found the compacity for them to happily coexist within me then there are others having the same experience that I am having. There are probably lots of other humans who have balanced play and depth. Maybe it's not a need for you, but it is 100% a soul need for me to cultivate space in my life to play and go deep. Both parts need to be satiated regularly, or I will begin to miss my full expression, i will crave me in a way that feels so lonely.
So I have decided to focus soley on refining my life, through my time with my boys, my work, creating our home, and spending that little sliver of my free time cultivating that which feels expansive to me. Play and depth, Always. When my life opens up time wise, I might consider a partner again. Or if someone can come in and compliment my life as it is now, great. But l am not investing my energy there. My energy is precious, and this time with my wee ones underfoot is precious and fleeting. I am not going to take away from that. They already have a father, and i wouldnt introduce my children to someone who i wasnt already in a long-term, tried and tested relationship with.
I am lucky that my work through Sanar nourishes both play and depth. Almost every client shares in both. It's where I feel most fully me, most fully expressed. It's a true love and a privilege, and I am grateful every day that I have nurtured it to a point that it feels effortless and strong and steady.
With that all said and done. ~A wee life update. I want to share with you something l've been investing my time into lately. With some good friends who are very skilled and embodied, deep and oh SO playful.
I put my hand up to be a co-conspiritor of their event planning. Their board does much more than that, but this is what sets me alive, it merges my passion for authentic relating. dance, play, connection, creativity, service and community. It's let me put my very colourful life experiences and oh so varied skillset to use. It's dynamic and playful and deep, just how llike it. Check it out. And come along ☺️ These events will be a lot of fun and hopefully a healthy lil stretch for all participants
Link to cedars events
https://www.facebook.com/cedarcommunityinc?mibextid=ZbWKwL
