05/05/2025
Long post incoming sorry not sorry
At the start of 2022 I decided to go back to study: Master of Science in Medicine - Pain Management, online at University of Sydney
My passion for pain management comes from a very personal place with my own history of musculoskeletal pain and endometriosis, and also from friends, family and patients who seemed to be falling through the cracks.
Watching so many people be left to live with chronic pain or pain in end of life because they have exhausted pharmacological and surgical methods of treatment is honestly heartbreaking.
I thought there has to be something we can do to help all patients experiencing short or long term pain, especially in cases where conditions can't be completely resolved because of illness, end of life, or other reasons. Why is no one focusing on non-medical treatment to address quality of life? Looking at people as a whole and working with their body and nervous system to teach them how to take control of their pain and improve function? Yes, complete resolution is not always possible, but the impact that some level of relief can be for a person with persistent pain is profound.
This is something I've always tried to do in practice, but in patients with long term conditions I often see people lose touch with what they are feeling, losing the ability to listen to their body and be part of their own management plans.
The three years were harder than I imagined they would be, not only because of the long weekends and late nights studying, but because of the unexpected personal trials along the way. The significant toll that came with family members going through the same conditions as the case studies I was researching hit me hard. That and the professional trials that I underwent in this time caused me to take a much needed semester break, because burnout happens people and it should not be ignored!
The things that helped me come out the other side was highlighted to me in those hardships, the knowledge that there were still people out there who needed help, and that the healthcare community needed health professionals who are not only well educated but are constantly striving to provide high quality, patient centred care.
I did get a bit emotional sitting in the Great Hall on campus today thinking of everything I overcame in these years, it's not often I feel proud of myself, but it did happen a tad today.
It is because of this rough patch that I feel stronger than ever emotionally and professionally. I feel so strongly about the rights surrounding patient autonomy and will continue to not only treat my patients as such but advocate for them outside of my consultation room.
My amazing clinic owner Steph let me condense my full time hours to 4 days so I could have a weekday to study as well as my weekends. My colleagues both in and out of Goldfields Health Collective have always encouraged and inspired me to keep learning, I'm incredibly lucky to have ended up at a clinic that prioritise patient well-being to the same extent as I do.
My amazing friends who put up with me, either sending me words of support when I was staying up until midnight finishing assignments or readings, or even keeping me company on study dates and coming over to body double with me in the hopes my brain would kick into gear. A special mention to my old housemate Thea who kept a constant supply of tea on my desk, dinner in front of me on rough weeks and for confiscating my phone from me when I was procrastinating, I appreciate you so much!
Of course I have to mention all of my wonderful patients who cheered me on along the way!
And of course my family, all 50 thousand of you of course but special mention to my immediates who somehow convinced me that learning was a good idea... and also for understanding when I couldn't always make it down to Melbourne as often as I'd like on weekends because I had to study, for coming up for sleepovers to catch up and making me take a break. For letting me ignore you a tad when you did come up and cooking me dinner and putting it on the desk in front of me so that I'd at least eat something. For dad doing lawn mows and for mum doing the washing when you came up, it's amazing how checking a little thing off your to do list can make such a big difference.
All those asking what's next... give me a few years to get the hecs down then come talk to me 😂