30/12/2022
I don't do new years resolutions but I do like to complete the year and prepare for what the universe will deliver the following one.
I want to share with you, my online friends and family about what's happening in life.
Its been a turbulent few years as we all know. I've struggled somewhat with how to juggle my beliefs and passions and life and business.
There's a voice inside my head that says to not say this or share too much about that.. Better not appear to be too much that or not enough of this.
But holding my tongue is not my strong suit. I did it out of trauma as a child and once I recognised it, I can't keep it in.
I have a saying "some things just need to be said and some people just need to be told."
I speak before I think somethimes but I trust that the words that come out are usually my absolute truth and if I find them to be unjust then I'm happy to apologise.. always better to ask for forgiveness than ask for permission. And I figure im a grown arse woman who no longer needs permission from anyone.
So in saying all that. I know my posts don't sit well with many.. I can tell by the amount of likes compared to when I post a pic of my dogs ππ€£And im ok with that.
So to clear the year let me say this.
I am grateful for everything that happened , even the toughest of toughest things.. the sad things. As well asalll the good ###
I have been so very sad. I lost my beautiful Keith. I still chat with him most days though. And strangely, or not so strangely i feel him close by and i know he had a hand in whats about to happen. I miss you Keefy.
I waited 3 years for a very dear friend to be finally found guilty, only to have him get 16 months and then 3 months later to be out on bail while he appeals. I saw first hand how the justice system in this country does not work.
Im sad that I'm an orphan with both my parents still living. I haven't spoken to my mother or brother in well over 10 years and although being so close to my dad since I was a teenager, he has chosen a future without myself and the girls. He has chosen to be "right" over having a family. He hurt me even more than my mother because I never saw it coming. That was a bitter pill to swallow.
So my family are my daughters and my friends and a few cousins I've reconnected with on here and that's
just the way it's meant to be.
I am baffled by the giving away of our freedom that I have seen so many do. I am sad that we cant have different opinions and not still be friends. Im also clear that to be friends i need to have important values aligned. Freedom is way up there as one of my top values. So to see so many surrender without question has been difficult for me.
I am sad that moving to the inner west of Sydney has not been as joyful for me as I had hoped. I'm sad that moving back to the Hills will mean I'm farther away from my daughters.
I am happy that I get to self observe and go inward to decode the messages so I can determine my truth and what is really going on with me. I'm also extremely blessed to be able to help others do the same.
I was hibernating in this house in Lilyfield. I was seeing clients here but very unhappy with the house as a home or a place of business. My rooms at Erskineville were so beautiful but saddened that there was no sense of community there.
Travelling back to Glenhaven and renting space with my Naturopath at Bella Vista Natural Therapies Clinic was just so beautiful. The practitioners and therapists are an amazing bunch of aware and conscious and creative talented women. It made me realise that I had given up on my dream to create just that for myself and for the community.
I had looked at business coaching that didn't sit right with me. I bought 3 boxes of mangoes for a charity that came with a free coaching session with an old friend Nikhil. He had me realise exactly what i wanted.. what i trully wanted and then speak into it.
So I went to see my new Kinesiologist Claire Thomas-Pavich and she opened my mind to see and feel the joy I was missing.
I then had a healing with Bec at NRG and that afternoon it all came to make sense. Speaking on the phone to my beautiful sister Kimmik Mc, I spoke out loud about how I missed the Hills and so longed for a centre of my own where I could live and work and create a community of therapists where we all shared our love for healing and wellness and supported each other to be the best we could be. Whilst still on the phone to her, I searched realestate dot com and there she was. .....
My Soul Centre
Hills Healing Hub
I knew all the pieces were coming together.
Then to have Karlie and Merilyn and Kimmi.. and my daughters Tori and Alex be so supportive of me and my dream was just a beautiful
Nurturing experience that ill never forget.
And so here we are, new years eve eve.
Im packing and feeling joy for the first time in what seems forever.
Im so excited for the dogs to have room again.
Im excited to have big open windows and a view of bush instead of neighbours walls. Im on a few acres but close to everything. I wasn't sure that was even possible anymore.
Leaving Box Hill and 3 acres was difficult. I loved that place but not so much what happened there.
Now it's a new beginning in a new year with a new joyful lease on life. Im happy to wave goodbye to this year and for the first time feel joy at the one coming in.
I know there will be confrontations and difficulties as the government do their thing but I will keep raising my vibration, sharing my truth, touching bodies, minds and hearts.
The Soul Centre is a place of sanctuary.
Please come and have a cuppa and chat about what your feeling.
Come to our women's circles
And couples circles.
Come to out mother daughter circles.
Circles of love and peace to share your life, promote your business. Ask for support, mediate together.
Come for a cuppa and some vegan banana bread.
Come and be touched, moved and Inspired at the Soul Centre, at my home, there is but a door that separates the two.
But they will be together in my heart.
Thank you to all the wonderful people I met this year. Thank you for the ones that chose to leave. Thank to the ones who left unexpectedly for what you gave me when you lived.
Thank you to everyone and everything I crossed paths with this year, especially the ones who chose to stay.
I look forward to having you all visit the centre this year for whatever reason you find.
The doors will nearly always be open. π
From January 9, 2023
Love and blessings
Kelley ###