Doula Dani SBD

24/11/2023

04/11/2022

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12/05/2022

“I mourn for a child” from

07/05/2022

Even if your child has left this earth, you are still a mother. Not even death can change that fact. Once a mother, always a mother.

26/02/2022

Every parent of child loss understands that this is a grief that has no closure. No matter how many years, no matter how many tears, a parent’s heart will forever feel the empty pain of child loss.

17/02/2022

Do not judge the Grieving Mother.

16/02/2022

Others often have such unrealistic expectations for those who are grieving the loss of their child. Somehow they expect things to "get back to normal" with a certain timeline. Somehow they think that life will eventually move on without skipping much of a beat. Somehow they think that our grief will be able to be tucked away neatly in a little closet never to return again. Sadly, that is far, far from the way grieving the loss of a child works. The grief and sadness will always be there. There is no end to this kind of grief. This is a that will last with a parent forever.

13/02/2022

“It took my breath away.”

I’ll never forget when I truly experienced my breath being taken away.

My breathing was shallow as they searched for Laurelai’s heartbeat on the fetal doppler and then became more and more shallow as they searched for a sign of life on the ultrasound machine.

The first time my breath was taken away?

It happened when my doctor muttered those four life changing words.

“There is no heartbeat.”

I inhaled with shock. The shock of a new reality.

In that very moment, I truly realized the meaning of loss.

My breathing stayed shallow up until I saw her. Where I again had my breath taken away.

There was a bitter beauty about this time. She was perfect and I remember feeling an overwhelming feeling of guilt that I was still breathing when she wasn’t.

That last inhale I took before I lost her has never fully been breathed back out. I live in the inhale of all of the lost moments…the lost life that I get flashes of on a day to day basis.

And I feel like I won’t be able to fully breathe again until I see her again. My breathing will forever be shallow until I take my last.

So for now, as I live my life without my beautiful baby I wait…

I wait until I can breathe again.

-Hailey Ricks
Stillborn Still Loved Foundation

01/02/2022