Aaron's Day

21/11/2025

We have Aaron's Birthday coming up on Sunday. Everything feels a little extra heavy. The tears flow more freely and not even in a super sad way. This process of feeling this loss has been so slow. I haven't had a rage about it or crying so hard I can't pick myself up from the floor. Admittedly that level of crying only happened once during a period of treatment where sleep derivation was at the forefront and uncertainty for Aaron at that time was at an all time high with the spiel from his doctors being "it's to be expected" when it was more than that for him and for me. One of those times he was on the brink of death and I only know now how true that was - I've seen it now so I know I was right. Hospice was hard because of that time. How was he supposed to not get better from this, reality for us was that we'd brought him back from worse before why couldn't we do it again?

Aunty Jorj is jumping out of a plane on Sunday. Ella wants us to get you a birthday present. One thing on your list was a drone with a camera, I do wish I had surprised you with it while you were still here. I will grab one tomorrow and hope that I can fly it for you. I didn't get nearly enough pictures of your birthday last year. You did get told about your Puppy wish coming true and had a fun day. I didn't think it would be our last together baby boy 😔

15/11/2025

I would see this every school pick up. Especially if she ran off ahead of me. I see you just a few steps in front of me. We have changed how we do school pick up these days. This might be why. It works better for us.

Picture taken a year before your last breath. You did grow over that summer but it wasn't much. My tiny boy we are missing you. As Ella plays with the kids in the complex, doing things she used to do with you (water play with the hose and the water guns we bought together) our heart breaks for your absence. It will be this way for the rest of our lives. It can stay but I also look forward to the day it doesn't take me to my knees with tears spilling from my eyes and the ache crushing my chest. I just want it to feel like love not pain, mainly because I don't want you to worry about us. We will be ok buddy.

I remember you both rolling down the hill together that afternoon and then we got slurpees on the way home.

11/11/2025

I love my whole family and my sissy 💞😇🪽

02/11/2025

We miss you so much. Got some new cars for your collection on special :D If you were with us you would have been so excited. Ella was was like... What are you doing mum?!

The checkout lady scanned the 3 I originally picked and said they were $4 so I said Ella let's go get the rest. She thought I was nuts 🤣 we left the ones I knew you already had at home. When I said they were for your collection she said "awww" and was totally accepting of her mumma going a little cray-cray over Cars. She's the best sister and set them up with your picture. I am yet to get you a cabinet for all your special things. These will probably get put in your room. I plan to collect all of them for the rest of my life 💕

Lightning McQueen Cars

22/10/2025

NASA photo of the day...
I hoped for pretty stars in the galaxy but nope... Just out here making a whole damn planet 🌌

16/10/2025

This popped up in Google photos memories 😍

08/10/2025

Found this picture from our Camp Quality family camp earlier this year. You had the best smile buddy. It was much needed fun after all that we had been through. I'll cherish memories at that place and will probably make sure we go there every year to remember you 💞

27/09/2025

I love you so much. We have been hit hard, Ella and I, with missing you more intensely. It's hurting. The flashbacks. The ache. We were busy and now that things are slowing down it's like I'm coming back into my body and feeling things. My breath is hard to catch. I'm burning food I try to cook when I feel hungry which is rare. We were doing ok and now, especially Ella, outbursts of feelings are coming and I can only hope it doesn't become our new normal. I will always miss you but I want to miss you beautifully, peacefully with love. Not in a suffocating, overwhelming pit of loss and despair. I will go through the motions of this as we always have. With your strength and love as a reminder, we will be ok.

26/09/2025

With Ed Sheeran – I just earned their Sheerio badge!🎉

25/09/2025

My gorgeous boy 💛
Among the for Childhood Cancer Awareness Month.

I love you always my sweet boy 🎗️Ella is missing you but we are doing ok 👼🪽

💛 A A R O N 💛

This September, we're sharing to raise awareness of childhood cancer—specifically .

Aaron was diagnosed with neuroblastoma in 2022, at just 2 years old.

He underwent a long and gruelling treatment regime that devastated his tiny body and left his immune system shattered. Aaron's cancer was deemed refractory, but his treatment continued. His mum, Cass, was his most fierce advocate; she stayed by his side until the end, holding him while he took his last breath. His big sister, Ella, just as cheeky, was his best friend and protector. He loved his Nanny beyond words.

Aaron was surrounded by so much love during his short life. He was surrounded by so much love when he passed away in the early morning of August 27.

His mum will never forget the first sunrise without him.

It has been almost 4 weeks since Aaron's passing. While his family miss him beyond words and continue to search for him everywhere they go, they find peace in the fact that Aaron is no longer in pain – he is no longer suffering.

We will never forget Aaron. We will always say his name. We will always remember his gorgeous, cheeky smile. Aaron was, and always will be, a beam of sunshine.

💡 Neuroblastoma treatment should not be locked into standard protocols. Individualised care would help reduce the number of children who pass away from treatment side effects. It would also help kids like Aaron who have slipped through the cracks of standard scheduled screening post-treatment. The brutality of treatment and the effect it has on families is beyond devastating. More needs to be done. More funding is desperately needed for safer and more effective treatments that adopt a more individualised approach.

💬 Awareness is the first step toward a cure— to quicken the pace.

🙏 Together, we can make neuroblastoma a thing of the past.