26/02/2026
Today would have been your first assembly at school and you would have been so so proud of your sister!!! She is Class Captain buddy :) Who knows maybe you could have been Class Captain too... She's been thinking about you a lot and missing you for these special moments. I think your older sister Ivy is Class Captain at her school too so you probably would have been as well.
I've told her about your ashes because she kept asking to see your body. She wasn't ok about it but then she was, I told her it meant that we could bring you home. That was two days ago and she gave them a hug yesterday afternoon. I apologised to her for not having told her straight away but you've been with us this whole time. That I was worried about how she might react and that I needed to wait until she was ready. She knew you were cremated and I summarised by giving the example of aunty Rosie's pets in her memory cabinet - I didn't give details I just waited for her to ask questions because how do you explain cremation to a little person missing her brother. She found her own words and I guided from there about what it meant, reminding her that we put so many of your special things with you that will be with you always.
I also told her about my dream that I had where I'd come downstairs and her and the dog had remains scattered through the living room which is why she isn't to touch because if the tube is dropped you could pop open. I don't know maybe that's TMI and a little weird to talk about but it was a dream and I woke up horrified thinking if it happened I'd have to suck you up with a vacuum cleaner π
We will look at securing you a nicer place to keep you intact, for now you can stay on top of the fridge.