
20/12/2021
I awoke early this morning, an hour or more before the dawn of the Solstice. I sat in contemplation acknowledging the sacred wheel.
What struck me is that like the wheel of the year, there are cycles reflecting each turn, each season, each point of the wheel.
I reflected on the nature of the highest peak of light, summer Solstice, as it is here now. I realised the intensity within myself in the nature of peak light. All I have seen, all that is revealed, all that is blinding in that light peak.
I know too that as the wheel turns, the light will ever so imperceptibly recede. I know that for me that will reduce the intensity, allow a movement towards contemplated space where I will look towards the harvest times, the honour of what I have sown with good intentions, can be reaped. Then in that more contemplative time, I can sense the ancestors more strongly and hear their call, benefit from their wisdom, their lived experiences.
Others prefer the light. They prefer the peak positive power of the light, the seen, the heat, the flourish.
I find in the stillness, the cooler times, I can sense more and connect more. There is for me at least a difference between the darkest hours of the night, followed by the reliance on the dawn of a new day, fresh perspective, a new chance, and the difference between peak solar intensity of overwhelm, released towards harvest, community, inner peace.
This year has been a lot, with more to come. The way each being honours that and travels that each unique to them. For me, I know that what the light has revealed has been blinding, I honour the integration time to come. I honour that in me the sun represents all I am shown, the darkness, all I need to integrate, reflect and honour.
Duality is within us all. Not just gods or equinoxes or peak times like Solstice, simply within. We reflect that duality every day. Is it always in balance, no, I would say not. However, to deny one aspect is to lose sight of your integral make-up, unique to you, to that within others.
I never met someone I haven't learnt from, or a season I could not feel within me. Are all lessons fun, pleasant or even knowingly wanted, no absolutely not. But they are ours to interpret in reflecting. To absorb in a way that speaks to our inner knowledge. Not to detract from our self worth, which is often the first feeling, if the lesson or mirror is unpleasant. It's what we do with it that allows empowerment through tears, or smiles.
This dawn, before the harvest, the battle between oak and holly, I look within and honour that in myself. Honouring duality, ups and downs, light and dark within. Lessons, heat, and intensity. I honour the connection to that for only in that can there be understanding.
Blessed be. Sarah Astragals Holistic Counselling and Brisbane Tarot School