11/04/2026
Give me a writing deadline, and I'll show you a house that's never looked cleaner! 😂
Does anyone else decide to deep clean their house when they are procrastinating?!
At school, I was always leaving my assignments to the last minute to finish (or start). For exams, I would cram the night before, telling myself that the information was fresh in my memory! 🫣
For years into my adult life, when the same patterns would reappear, delaying getting started, dragging my feet and stuck in analysis paralysis and letting my dory mind get distracted by everything shiny around me, I just thought it was normal. That's just how I roll. I work better under pressure. I'm more productive when I have so much going on at once.
It was also easier to avoid taking big action or putting myself out there or showing up, and then have a reason and justification for why things in my life weren’t changing or improving.
The truth is, my poor little child's nervous system was under constant attack, always on edge, hyper vigilant, unable to stop, to reset, to pause and focus. As an adult, the patterns kept playing out until I learned how to manage my nervous system, how to increase my focus and productivity and most importantly, how to feel safe to stop, pause, breathe, and not have to hold everything all at once, all at the same time.
I also learned that fear was running the show and stopping me from taking action and directing me towards the things I needed to do to move my life forward. I learned that this is a form of protection (not a very good one!), The mind and the body will stay in the familiar because that is what feels safe and easy. It is easier to stay the same than take big action and make a change. Consciously, we know we want more, but subconsciously, we keep playing out the same patterns and behaviours.
If you recognise yourself in these patterns too, this is your sign to take it easy this weekend, start the one thing you have been avoiding and send your younger and inner you some love, kindness and compassion and understand that there is often more happening beneath the surface in our mind and body than we realise. 🩷🩵
