14/05/2023
What a day! Mother’s Day… For so many a sweet day of celebration, for so many others mixed and bittersweet with both love and loss, and for others more a day of grief. With so many posts now of a similar nature, I know a lot of you will turn off the socials for today, and either embrace or distract yourselves from the emotional rollercoaster this day can be.
I remember the posts of acknowledgment, the posts that didn’t acknowledge anything but the joy of being a Mother, and having mothers and Grandmothers to celebrate. It didn’t matter if my feelings or place as a mother, mother with only losses, or a mother with mixed children and losses were acknowledged or not, the pit in my stomach of another Mother’s Day passing… Well nothing could make that better. Another year.
Then amidst my sorrow, came my joys, my loves, and I so wanted to share this feeling with everyone who was struggling like me. I wanted to help! That’s why I do this!
And now I can sit in this place, on this day, remembering, rejoicing, still a mixed bag at times, but so thankful for the opportunity to really appreciate the experience of motherhood, and so thankful that I could never ever ever take these blessings for granted.
To my living babies, I am so thankful for the joy you bring me each day. To the babies with God, I am thankful for the time we had, and look forward to meeting you again, and to the babies to come, I anticipate and greatly look forward to meeting you and knowing you!
This is really all I wanted to see on Mothers Day, the acknowledgment of those blessed, on just how blessed they were, so I could share in their joy, and know it meant so much they received their gift and knew it.
To anyone still yet to know joy in this way, or experience it for longer or with another baby, just know I see you, and pray that you would find your path to the little loves that live in your heart.
Please reach out if you need to chat about where you are at, infertility is still such a secret battle, and sometimes you need to talk with someone. No pressure, just know I’m here.
- Eleisha
