ESPG Revolution

01/01/2026

Happy New Year!! 2026 will be our year Kings!!

I saw the new year in at Coolum with an old mate of mine and a great crowd.

Funnily enough, we were asked if we were Mediterranean and gay? I didn’t think I was that pretty.

My mate is from Mauritius, guess that’s a bit closer to the Mediterranean than my bloodlines.

30/12/2025

Wake up, cold shower, journal and switch on the killer mindset. Sometimes writing out what’s in your head can be beneficial.

It’s the last day of 2025, it’s been a heck of a year. It’s your time Kings/Queens.

Time waits for no one……get after it

Ben

30/12/2025

Something different during my “holidays”.

I’ve done lots of demolition in my time so jumped back in the crew to earn some extra money.

Long day out at Boonah, pub lunch, good banter and a couple of old fellas having a crack.

The bonus outside of the money is the clarity that comes from hard work. At 42 I often thought my days of swinging spanners and labouring hard were long done. I’ve been accustomed to 150k plus sales/operations/management jobs. But f**k me, how good is it to physically work hard?

Has the same effect on me as going to the gym. Settles me, improves my mood and feels rewarding.

Lads, you do a trade for a reason. You always have that tradie work ethic to fall back on.

I’m grateful that I’m capable enough to still be able to make an impact and that’s what fills my cup…..

Don’t wait for your bu****it New Years Resolutions. Make some changes now. 2026 is our year kings.

Ben

29/12/2025

My daughter repping one of my favourite shirts. Checkout Adonis online, they have some great clothing.

My fashion is very “middle aged dad/bogan” as my kids would say however I feel powerful and alive whenever I wear or see a shirt like this.

Mental Health should be spoken about more and we all should be accountable to ourselves to share when we’re not ok.

You are important to the world.

28/12/2025

Cue all of the New Years Resolutions…..

Are your drunk statements real? Is New Year’s Eve your last hoorah before a sober 2026?

Will you actually heal yourself from your trauma? Or will the patterns keep arising?

One thing I do know….small goals, small steps and a desire for change will leave you in good stead. Sure, you may f**k up, but will you keep improving and being a better version of yourself for your loved ones and most importantly for you.

I’m 42, another failed relationship, more hurt, more reason to feed my chaotic inner child, more reason to turn to alcohol, more reason to self destruct, more reason to have a pity party, more reason to rally my supporters to justify my behaviour and stance. F**k that.

Life is hard yes!!! However we can make it easier on ourselves.

Take the first steps, be honest with yourself, be accountable, be disciplined, have clarity and keep winning Kings!!!!

Ben

27/12/2025

27/12/2025

As someone who’s battled alcoholism my whole adult life, this rings very true!

What’s your reason? Why do you turn to the bottle?

For me, it was it was the only place I felt like my head was quiet and I didn’t have to pretend I was ok.

26/12/2025

Boxing Day work. Before gym and after.

The narrative…. F**k the world, my Mrs left me, I feel like drinking, blah blah blah. All the s**t I replay in my head and believe. I know when I get that head noise that I have to train.

In the words of Tyson Fury “if you feel fit, you feel good”. What a difference an hour makes pushing plates around.

Your best workouts and clarity come when you don’t want to be at the gym. It’s the most important time that you go.

Physical health and mental health go hand in hand.

26/12/2025

This lad has some amazing content and thoughts. Worth a follow!

Alcohol isn’t “just a bad choice” when you’re living in it… it’s survival with a price tag.

You have no idea what it takes to pour poison into your body every day and still function like nothing’s wrong.

Or... maybe you do?

Still get up.

Still answer emails.
Still make dinner.
Still show up to birthdays.
Still pay rent.

Still smile at people who have no clue you’re hanging on by a thread.

People love to call it weak.

But most people couldn’t handle one week inside an alcoholic’s baseline reality and keep their life standing.

Because it’s not just drinking.

It’s carrying a brain that won’t shut up.
A body that won’t settle.

A chest that feels tight for no reason.
A constant internal pressure that makes existing feel like work.

And then alcohol shows up like a light switch.

Not a party.
Not an escape story you tell for fun.

A break.
A pause.
A chance to not feel everything at once.

Every sip isn’t “I don’t care.”

It’s “I can’t afford to care right now.”
It’s “If I feel this fully, I’m going to collapse.”
It’s “I need five minutes where my own mind isn’t attacking me.”

Do you really think if I knew how to choose something else…

I’d keep choosing the thing that’s burning my life down?

Do you really think I like waking up sick, ashamed, and promising myself I’m done… again?

I’m not chasing destruction.

I’m trying to turn down the volume on living.

And what makes it worse is the misunderstanding.

The looks.
The labels.
The “why don’t you just stop?”

Because the more you treat me like I’m a piece of s**t… the more I need a drink to not feel like a piece of s**t.

That’s the loop no one sees.
That’s the trap.

So if someone in your life is drinking themselves numb… don’t mistake it for not caring.

Sometimes it’s the only way they know to keep showing up while they’re quietly falling apart.

They don’t need another lecture.

They need someone who finally gets it…
and helps them find a way out that doesn’t start with shame.

18/12/2025

After a few bumps in the road and an incredibly hard couple of weeks, we’re still here making a difference.

Growth comes through discomfort, clarity comes through pain.

You are loved and someone is proud of you. Keep standing.

**kdivorce

12/12/2025

Wow, what an ordeal the last few weeks has been. It’s time to reset, breathe, train my arse off and read.

Feeding my fragile soul again x

30/11/2025

Ain’t that the truth!