28/04/2024
Every day for the past few weeks I have seen at least 1 eagle flying over my headâŚsometimes Iâve seen 3 in one day!
Thereâs a strong powerful message coming through- new perspectives, flying high, a strong sense that they are guardians watching over meâŚguiding me through and telling me over and over to keep looking up and outward, to expand my view on things, to sour, to spread my wings!
Lately, Iâve been letting go of some more âsense of selfâ layersâŚthe ones that are shaped by family lineage & social conditioning, other peoples belief systems and expectations that have shaped how I âshow upâ for myself and others. Who am I without all of the past âexperienceâ and who am I because of the past âexperienceâ of my life?
I just spent a nourishing 24hrs with some friendsâŚand listening to some really deep insights shared through the power of spoken wordâŚwith the theme beingâŚâwho are youâ?
Some really deep and powerful words were sharedâŚand this was one of the most potent slam poetry nights Iâve been to! So grateful for this experience!
I was telling friends that Iâve been trying really hard to re-establish my healing offerings and create an opportunity to work from home, and itâs just not flowing forward as expected.
âŚand I keep getting frustrated and anxious about when money will start flowing inâŚafter I just increased my mortgage significantly to pay my ex out and keep my house.
Lately Iâm starting to feel the pressure and old belief patterns start warping my thoughts againâŚknowing that I need to âtrust myselfâ and âtrust in the processâ
Everything will be okay!
What was I missing?
What perspective or insight am I not seeing?
Should I be waiting for a unique opportunity to present itself?
I knew I needed to step back from the masculine- pushing, trying, doingâŚand into the feminine- visualising, manifesting, receivingâŚtrusting the right things will flow into my life effortlessly!
Itâs hard to shift into this space after being in âsurvival modeâ most of my life- feeling like I still have a responsibility to support everyone elseâŚand in the past often pushing my own needs aside to protect or prioritise others.
Hard to âtrustâ after a long time being on the receiving end of narcissistic abuseâŚallowing others to dictate my worth , and now I was learning how to start saying yes to myself more! Yay!
So today I took a little me timeâŚto reflect and sit with myselfâŚI threw my body in the ocean, connecting with the land I spent my whole childhood growing up inâŚ.it feels magical!
It was really strange how safe I felt in this water swimming out in big waves beyond my depth!
Have I been afraid of taking these quantum leaps forward?
Perhaps there is a big fear of the unknownâŚa fear of âwhat if it all comes crashing downâ âwhat if I failâ âwhat if I find myself alone againâ âwhat if Iâm not good enoughâŚto receive good things or be worthy of loveâ?
or
âwhat ifâŚ.WHAT IF I listened to the messages from the eagle spirit and spread my wings a little wider to allow myself to sour?
What would it feel like if I simply allowed myself to trust and receive?
What if I could have it all?
Itâs okay to dream big and receive the good things in life!
Iâve been doing a lot of visualisationâŚimagining myself in my future life and what I want to create for myselfâŚand I havenât manifested this alone!
A few months ago we were questioning if we should live inland off grid or do we want to be beachside?
I think the answers to our questions are coming in strong and fast!
At the very least, some amazing and unique opportunities are flowing in!
As I there I sat on the beach that was my âlocalâ growing upâŚremembering all the feelings from my life experiences here.
I remember the first time my dad took me out past my depth and the way my heart beat so fast because I was so scared!
He gently reminded me that I could swimâŚ(I was a really strong swimmer as a child) he didnât try to reach out and hold me or save meâŚhe just smiled and kept reminding me that I was safe, if I didnât want to swim, I could just float!
He reminded me I was ok, âyou got thisâ he said, and that he was right there beside me if I started to drown.
I didnât drown!
I floated until I got my heart to calm down and I had a chance to catch my breath.
I didnât feel like I needed to quickly catch the first wave into safe ground- I made myself stay there in the uncomfortable until it became comfortable.
I realised my inner power to be my own saviour!
Thanks mum and dad for being so supportive and amazing and caring and nurturing- Iâm deeply grateful!
And then as I was thinking of how this relates to my current situationâŚ.as I have a big opportunity in front of me to take a leap of faith and step forward into something that feels a little scary and out of my depthâŚ.
I decide to look up into the sky above the ocean and the place where this childhood moment took place .
And thereâs another eagle flying overhead!
The eagle suddenly takes a deep dive straight into the ocean and comes up with a huge fish in its talonâs!
Incredible!
If this is not a freaking really powerful and obvious message, I donât know what is!
WowâŚjust wow!
If you actually read this to the endâŚcan you leave one word or a few words in the comments to let me know?
And maybe share any lessons or insights that have been coming up for you lately?
Mahalo & Aloha xx
