28/04/2024
Every day for the past few weeks I have seen at least 1 eagle flying over my headā¦sometimes Iāve seen 3 in one day!
Thereās a strong powerful message coming through- new perspectives, flying high, a strong sense that they are guardians watching over meā¦guiding me through and telling me over and over to keep looking up and outward, to expand my view on things, to sour, to spread my wings!
Lately, Iāve been letting go of some more āsense of selfā layersā¦the ones that are shaped by family lineage & social conditioning, other peoples belief systems and expectations that have shaped how I āshow upā for myself and others. Who am I without all of the past āexperienceā and who am I because of the past āexperienceā of my life?
I just spent a nourishing 24hrs with some friendsā¦and listening to some really deep insights shared through the power of spoken wordā¦with the theme beingā¦āwho are youā?
Some really deep and powerful words were sharedā¦and this was one of the most potent slam poetry nights Iāve been to! So grateful for this experience!
I was telling friends that Iāve been trying really hard to re-establish my healing offerings and create an opportunity to work from home, and itās just not flowing forward as expected.
ā¦and I keep getting frustrated and anxious about when money will start flowing inā¦after I just increased my mortgage significantly to pay my ex out and keep my house.
Lately Iām starting to feel the pressure and old belief patterns start warping my thoughts againā¦knowing that I need to ātrust myselfā and ātrust in the processā
Everything will be okay!
What was I missing?
What perspective or insight am I not seeing?
Should I be waiting for a unique opportunity to present itself?
I knew I needed to step back from the masculine- pushing, trying, doingā¦and into the feminine- visualising, manifesting, receivingā¦trusting the right things will flow into my life effortlessly!
Itās hard to shift into this space after being in āsurvival modeā most of my life- feeling like I still have a responsibility to support everyone elseā¦and in the past often pushing my own needs aside to protect or prioritise others.
Hard to ātrustā after a long time being on the receiving end of narcissistic abuseā¦allowing others to dictate my worth , and now I was learning how to start saying yes to myself more! Yay!
So today I took a little me timeā¦to reflect and sit with myselfā¦I threw my body in the ocean, connecting with the land I spent my whole childhood growing up inā¦.it feels magical!
It was really strange how safe I felt in this water swimming out in big waves beyond my depth!
Have I been afraid of taking these quantum leaps forward?
Perhaps there is a big fear of the unknownā¦a fear of āwhat if it all comes crashing downā āwhat if I failā āwhat if I find myself alone againā āwhat if Iām not good enoughā¦to receive good things or be worthy of loveā?
or
āwhat ifā¦.WHAT IF I listened to the messages from the eagle spirit and spread my wings a little wider to allow myself to sour?
What would it feel like if I simply allowed myself to trust and receive?
What if I could have it all?
Itās okay to dream big and receive the good things in life!
Iāve been doing a lot of visualisationā¦imagining myself in my future life and what I want to create for myselfā¦and I havenāt manifested this alone!
A few months ago we were questioning if we should live inland off grid or do we want to be beachside?
I think the answers to our questions are coming in strong and fast!
At the very least, some amazing and unique opportunities are flowing in!
As I there I sat on the beach that was my ālocalā growing upā¦remembering all the feelings from my life experiences here.
I remember the first time my dad took me out past my depth and the way my heart beat so fast because I was so scared!
He gently reminded me that I could swimā¦(I was a really strong swimmer as a child) he didnāt try to reach out and hold me or save meā¦he just smiled and kept reminding me that I was safe, if I didnāt want to swim, I could just float!
He reminded me I was ok, āyou got thisā he said, and that he was right there beside me if I started to drown.
I didnāt drown!
I floated until I got my heart to calm down and I had a chance to catch my breath.
I didnāt feel like I needed to quickly catch the first wave into safe ground- I made myself stay there in the uncomfortable until it became comfortable.
I realised my inner power to be my own saviour!
Thanks mum and dad for being so supportive and amazing and caring and nurturing- Iām deeply grateful!
And then as I was thinking of how this relates to my current situationā¦.as I have a big opportunity in front of me to take a leap of faith and step forward into something that feels a little scary and out of my depthā¦.
I decide to look up into the sky above the ocean and the place where this childhood moment took place .
And thereās another eagle flying overhead!
The eagle suddenly takes a deep dive straight into the ocean and comes up with a huge fish in its talonās!
Incredible!
If this is not a freaking really powerful and obvious message, I donāt know what is!
Wowā¦just wow!
If you actually read this to the endā¦can you leave one word or a few words in the comments to let me know?
And maybe share any lessons or insights that have been coming up for you lately?
Mahalo & Aloha xx
