08/12/2021
Well well well
I can officially update everyone, Dean, My best friend, My husband, My Favourite person, My boy is officially HOME!!!!!
We took the chance to spend a full day and night to just enjoy our own company.. Dean and I got told that this was it... only to return for two day consults, for what we hope will be the forever last procedures!! Two and only Two more spinal chemos left. Which will happen over the next week or two.
We as a family of 4 have all been given the best christmas present ever, and that is our family back together as a whole!!!.
Like Dean and I, the girls have literally been saying to one another every day, some days all day , to get us through to the next procedure, the next chemo bag , the next day of admission, the next set back... ONE MORE DAY DOWN, DAD WILL BE HOME BY XMAS, ONE MORE DAY BABE!
Everyone asks Dean and I how can we be positive.... well its simple, we just kept talking all day, everyday about all the wants , freedom, wishes, our changes , how much we loved one another, every second of the day pretty much.
We spoke about some really hard things , truths, and in a away this taught us one important thing, is..... our life is our life, our life is short enough, so we need to forget those that have torn us down, dont dwell on those who bring us negativity, or situations that we cant control, let them go.. and lets put what energy we did have left over from fighting cancer as a family too what and how are we going to use this as a way to get what we need in life... well it taught us another incredible lesson, all the things we ever dreamt of, spoke about, and wished upon, dean and I asked the girls the same, we have mapped out what our life moving forward, going on once this was over what did that look like?
I tell you what Dean and I have never been more driven, passionate, excited, filled with joy and love .. this experience has given us our new found love for life, we can see the beauty in life , even in a dark place, how beautiful life is almost magical.. we are all so busy doing our daily grind, we dont get to appreciate the greatness life has brought us, dean and I were forced to see this, as we had to hold onto this through out this entire hairy, dark, sad part of our lives. With that the love grew within dean and I, for us together, our selves individually, our children, any future children we may share as a family, it is our family unit and with that we are ready to explore lifes beauties, lifes adventure, and not sweat the small stuff !! EVER AGAIN.
Thank you all again for truely supporting us, not just Dean, Myself but the girls.
All the love helped us get through.
We have seen this journey bring out the beauty, the ugly, and the scary. In people, our selves, together and apart.
But Dean and I are so thankful, we can share this exciting news, and hopefully put all of this way behind us in the near future!.
My husband, we are coming up to our 2nd year wedding anniversary, and to say this year hasnt been a challenge is a dam lie. But ill leave the sappyness for you personally, but i just wanted you to know, there is no way I wasnt going to be doing life with you, you have fought so hard to make sure I was able to post this, to have you home, to let the girls have a dad. And writing this doesnt make it less painful, we can heal, recover and celebrate together. We have come through this so much stronger then I would have ever imagined. I guess this is where the saying " what doesnt kill us makes us stronger" comes from... well gees that hits harder then I could even describe. And im so thankful you and I are here to tell our tale. This has shown us how deep and strong our love for one another grows, and if cancer cant beat us, or tare us apart, no person, situation, health scare will ever be able to! So that I am thankful for, this journey taught us some incredible life lessons and I wouldnt change a thing. Maybe one or two 😅😅...
But your here, you knew you had to be, and you have lived up to your promises and vowls! We can still share our life, our family, and make our life together even more great ❤❤