21/03/2026
We have the ability to hold more than one perspective, experience or emotion at a time.
That was one of the themes of last nights Autumn equinox cacao ceremony. Holding the darkness in our hearts & remembering yin (dark) & yang (light) are relative. There is no concept of light without dark.
We spoke about the magic in the yin. Magic that is missed under the harshness of fluorescent lights and constant busyness. Magic that needs moments to turn down the volume & the lights - to be real & to notice what is alive in the moment.
As we enter the yin seasons of autumn & winter nature provides gentle reassurance there is wisdom in the shorter days and longer nights.
There is beauty in the falling away and the letting go.
There is an incredible power in nourishing the inner world so our magic can Be.
This one was a tender ceremony for me. My beautiful Dad passed away a few days ago & while I continue to sit with the sadness, grief & confusion of this loss I’m also touched by the preciousness of life, beauty, light & care.
My capacity for the mundane world is greatly reduced at the moment and that’s ok. The western world doesn’t do great at grief but I’m doing my best to be real in each moment.
I’ve put many things down so I can move with grief as it comes. But that doesn’t mean I’m in the dark 24/7…there’s a dance unfolding. Sometimes grief looks like staring out at the trees, or writing or reminiscing over old photos, sometimes it’s crying, or raging at the unfairness & heartache of dads struggle. And other times it’s doing the dishes, cuddling with my family, paying accounts that need to be paid and for me it’s also reading wisdom texts & grief poems & sitting in circle with heart centred humans allowing my soul & this land to guide me as I guide others.
It meant the world to me to be able to drink a cup of cacao in ceremony for Dad and to keep blessing him on his journey into the light. I’m taking much refuge in the knowing mum & dad are in the unseen world together again & his suffering is over.
Thank you to the beautiful humans who gathered with me honouring the dark and cherishing the light 🕊️🌿♥️
Much Love
Lani