14/01/2026
When your child has a birthday, your system may do two things at once:
1. Celebrate growth and love.
2. Remember your pregnancy and birth journey.
For myself my family story includes a chapter written under emergency conditions for all of my pregnancies. On my children’s birthdays my nervous system always remembers the experience of pregnancy equaling high risk, uncertainty and extra monitoring. There is a grief that lingers that I never got to experience a “normal” pregnancy.
So on their birthdays my heart feels both full and tender.
I always take a little time for myself — to reflect, to honour what that season asked of me, and what it took to get here.
(Not to wallow. Not to undo it. But to honour how hard it was).
That’s not sadness instead of having gratitude.
That’s sadness inside my immense gratitude.
I don’t ignore the journey and the cost to get to my beautiful outcome.
I am letting the full story be whole.
So if birthdays bring up more than just cake and candles for you — if they carry memory, tenderness, grief, relief, love, and a quiet “I made it” — you’re not doing it wrong.
You’re just letting yourself sit with what that was.
And that matters 🩷