16/02/2026
Oooft there can be so many reasons for feeling this way. But a really common reason is to do with the conscious “adult” part of your mind and the subconscious “child” part of your mind.
If I asked you everything you ate yesterday, you most likely will report incorrectly. This is because some of the foods you ate you really thought about, you planned, you cooked, you made decisions based on what is “good or healthy” and you were more aware and present - the mind was operating from the “adult” section.
And some of the food you ate was chosen by the impulsive, emotional, subconscious, stressed, scared etc etc “child” section of your mind. The scoffing of calories, the unaware state of cramming as much of whatever food possible into your mouth. Or even just mindless snacking, or you get so starving you just grabbed what was closest. Maybe you felt shame, guilt, fear about the food you chose, so you wanted to just eat it fast and get it over and done with.
Here’s what I have found. If you are trying to eat healthier - “all I eat is fish and salad and I am gaining weight”. It is usually, all you are conscious of is how much effort you’re putting into one or two meals in a day, you’re making them “too healthy”. They’re “too good”. And often they’re lacking what you actually feel like because you’re trying to be an adult and make healthy decisions. The more strict and controlled your conscious meals are, the more rebellious and glutenous your subconscious meals are.
I would love you to try this exercise.
Document everything you eat in a day, every single bit of food. And observe the feelings that come up. How would you feel if someone other than you knew what you were eating? Or not eating?
And can you neutralise the feelings? You’re not good or bad, you don’t have to feel pride or shame in relation to your diet.
If you’re wanting to feel well or change your body composition then you actually have to change. Not just think you have changed. Bring meal times and foods out of the dark. Do you think most of your calories come from foods that you have chosen and are conscious of? Or do think most of your calories have come from those in between foods?
