Dissociation and Trauma Healing, Gold Coast (2025)

06/08/2025

Here is a recent testimony related to the dissociative agenda that is hidden in all our lives - some agendas more deliberate and potent than others.

I didn’t know what I didn’t know…

I didn’t know there were hidden traumas in my past. I didn’t know those hidden traumas created pitfalls and b***y traps in my day-to-day life. I didn’t know I had difficulty maintaining friendships because of unhealed trauma. I didn’t know unwanted trauma was behind my mistrust of men. I didn’t realize I occasionally betrayed people’s confidences because I didn’t understand the boundaries (especially the unspoken ones, that most people understand.)

I didn’t mean to betray convinces. I certainly never intended to hurt anyone! I just didn’t know…

Then God began to reveal things to me. Because God DID know! And he wanted me healed.

God is so good about bringing us step by step to difficult realizations or challenges. When I read Peter Toth’s book about SRA, I recognized the possibility that intense trauma could be hidden in my past, and could explain some things (prolonged bed-wetting and aversion to s*x for instance. I still didn’t recognize that hidden trauma could be behind the things listed above.)

During the Anazao training about SRA, Peter asked me to be the demonstration volunteer, which involves asking Jesus to remove the spiritual veil and reveal SRA or other significant traumas that have been hidden by demons. I said “Yes, if there’s hidden trauma I want it revealed so I can heal”

Sadly, we discovered SRA in my background.

I had ABSOLUTELY NO MEMORY of ANY of the horrendous things that were done to me in a dissociative state. God has given us an amazing gift, so that overwhelming trauma and pain creates dissociated parts to carry us through these times. The mental health community is just beginning to understand dissociation and its role in our lives.

In spite of my memory loss, though, the physical and emotional pain was stored in my body, creating medical problems as well as causing ripples into the spiritual realm.

My healing continued with several days of Anazao ministry. As Peter called forward parts to share their memories with me, I noted that the memories were very strategic… often revealing hidden causes for problems in my day-to-day life. I know that Jesus chose which memories to reveal to me.

And after each memory, Peter asked Jesus to show how he had helped me through. And every single time, Jesus was there accepting part of the pain so I did not have to endure it all!

After ministry, several of my friends noted that I was different. One said “I feel more safe with you now.” Another noted that I looked different – happier and more confident. A third recognized the difference in conversation when I could easily talk back-and-forth rather than having one part listen to her for an extended period of time and then another part come forward to reply with a monologue.

And I recognize in myself that I can now refrain from lecturing about things I believe strongly in; instead allowing other people to hold different opinions without arguing about them. That’s huge! I have no idea how many people I pushed away because of that trait throughout the years.

I am also learning now how to be a friend. And what things are to be held in confidence, even if that person doesn’t specifically say “don’t tell anyone. This is in confidence.”

God recently put a couple people in my life who recognize that there are many things I still don’t know (and might not even know that I’m missing). They give me pointers on things most people learn in their childhood and teen years, so I can learn these things more quickly, without hurting as many people.

God is so good!

Becky USA

10/02/2025

In 2025, The Cutting Edge Training School will be held over four 3 day weekends to provide opportunity for more people to attend. Only FOUR workdays spread over three months are required to attend the complete school. These will always be held on a Friday, Saturday and Sunday. All the schools will be Zoom.

Module 1: Understanding the Kingdom of Darkness. April 4,5,6.

Module 2: Dissociation. May 2, 3, 4

Module 3: The Prevalence of Satanic Ritual Abuse. May 30, 31, June 1.

Module 4: Generational Iniquity. July 11,12,13,

Because the Zoom schools and seminars attract international participants, the time these start and finish during the day will depend of the make up of the group and this will be decided nearer the commencement of event. For example, if there are more participants from Europe than anywhere else, we will choose start and finish times for the whole school that provide the least inconvenience for the Europeans.

10/02/2025

Womb Memories Part 4

Trauma in the first and second trimester

In part 1, we discussed whether it was possible for developing humans to even have memories.

In part 2, we answered the question whether these memories are genuine. How do you tell? We gave an example.

In part 3 we looked at birth memories and how the birth process, particularly the use of forceps, frequently leads to ongoing head, neck and skeletal pain that can be lifelong and quite debilitating.

If you missed these articles, you can go to our website www.anazao.com.au and click on “Updates” and read the September, October and November updates.

In part 4, we will look at trauma in the first and second trimester.

The obvious question is, “How can a baby in the first or second trimester feel pain or endure trauma when they are cocooned with a buffer of protective amniotic fluid in which they float and zip around?”

The answer will astound you!

In part 2, we looked at the example of a late third semester pregnancy where the baby received a back injury when the mother’s belly was impacted strongly by the force of the steering wheel as she rear-ended another vehicle. The connection is expected and obvious.

If this accident happened in the first or second trimester, the mother had no extended belly and therefore no impact with the steering wheel but as her head went forward on impact and hit the steering wheel and then snapped back, she will have experienced forehead pain and whiplash.

At that instant, the baby in womb will also experience head pain and whiplash! Despite being cocooned in fluid and there being no direct connection between herself and her mother’s injury, she will still feel the same pain in the same places, both physical and emotional, that her mother is experiencing. Fascinating!

Why does this happen? Although the baby is a distinct individual, biologically different from her mother and the blood of the baby never mixes with the blood of the mother, there is still an extremely strong spirit, soul and body connection between the two. What the mother is experiencing emotionally, the baby experiences. If the mother is domestically abused by her husband, the baby feels the fear, powerlessness, perhaps terror and the physical injury in the same places. It’s what we call very strong soul ties.

If identical twins, geographically separated, can feel the physical pain in the same place that the other twin is experiencing directly, then it shouldn’t surprise us that the same would happen, but even stronger, if one human being is inside another and connected with an umbilical cord!

In part 5, next month, we will look at rejection in the womb.

The is the size of a 10 week old baby

18/12/2024

This blog continues on from last year’s Christmas blog challenging the popular belief that Mary contributed 50% of Jesus’ DNA. Last year we looked at two compelling reasons why this could not be the case. If you want to read this blog to refresh yourself, https://anazao.com.au/december-2020/

This year we will present two more strong arguments against holding this belief. For those who find theological discussions like this stimulating, then you will definitely enjoy our updated and revised book, “Underestimating Satan,” available from Amazon worldwide as a paperback, or from our website store as an e book, https://anazao.com.au/store/Underestimating-Satan-e-book-p18060398

The hybrid problem

Philosophically, to be fully God necessarily means a completely unique conception without any human intervention. To be fully man simply requires God the Son to contain himself within a complete set of human chromosomes. Jesus was both fully the second member of the Trinity and fully man. Had Mary provided the o**m and the Holy Spirit supernaturally provided the s***m, then Jesus would have differed little from the Nephilim mentioned in Genesis chapter 6, when the ‘sons of God’ took flesh and had in*******se with the ‘daughters of men.’ With Satan’s angel-human hybrids, supernatural s***m fertilized human ova, producing offspring that were fully human but not fully angelic. Full Nephilim, like Og, king of Bashan, and partial Nephilim like Goliath, were fully human – although very large – despite Og’s direct and Goliath’s ancestral paternity being demonic. In like manner, Jesus would have been completely human but not completely God.

The last Adam problem

Jesus was not only the last Adam in that he spiritually succeeded where Adam failed, he is also the last or second Adam in that he was the only human, since Adam, to be entirely the direct creation of God. No human intervention.

Thus it is written, “The first man Adam became a living being;” the last Adam became a life-giving spirit. But it is not the spiritual that is first but the natural, and then the spiritual. The first man was from the earth, a man of dust; the second man is from heaven. (1 Cor 15:45-47)

These verses makes it very clear that every aspect of Jesus’ creation was spiritual. If he had arisen from the fertilization of Mary’s o**m, he would have been the same as Adam; a man of dust. This Last Adam is definitely all from heaven.

Yet still from the line of David

How could Jesus be of the line of David if there was no DNA from Mary? Although no genetic material was provided by Mary, observers would have noted that Jesus emerged from womb of a woman who comes from the line of David, hence there can be no dispute that he is from the line of David. From a biological perspective, there was no genetic connection, via human intervention, back to David. It is impossible to be fully God and humanly linked to David.

However, Jesus did look Jewish, rather than Arabic, African or Chinese. Unlike Adam, whose genetic makeup encompassed enormous variability in order to give rise to many different races, Jesus’ biological information was limited to a much narrower set of characteristics. It is highly likely that his chromosomal makeup would have been very similar to the makeup of either Mary or Joseph, complete with all the biological markers that linked him to David’s blood line. God would have made sure of that. If we had a sample of his parent’s blood and could do an accurate genome map, we would find it very similar to Jesus’ blood, even though there was no direct biological contribution from either his earthly father or mother. In a very real sense then, Jesus could still claim be to descended from the blood line of David (and therefore the seed of Eve) and he probably looked like his parents as well. The only difference is that Jesus’ DNA would have been perfect; free of any chromosomal mutations that would necessarily have affected his earthly parents, due to the accumulative effect of 4000 years of decay.

Next year, at Christmas, we will conclude this topic.

14/10/2024

Womb Memories Part 2

A third trimester example showing the validity of womb trauma

In part 1, we looked at whether womb memories were even possible. In part 2 , we ask the question, “How do you know that recovered womb trauma memories are genuine? In fact that any recovered memory is genuine?”

For a memory to be considered genuine, the person has to feel in her body physically and experience emotionally what she is seeing in her mind. If it is mind alone, there is a possibility that the memory could be false. You can’t fake physical pain in your body that corresponds to what you are seeing in your mind.

Why does my physical body relive what happened decades ago?

Only a Christian worldview offers an adequate explanation. Every event in your life is a spirit, soul and body experience. A totally integrated experience; because you are a trinity of these three components. You are created in God’s image: at the primary level you can’t separate one from the other and yet at another level they can exist as tightly bound duets and at still a third level, they can exist separately.

[For detailed explanation of how our spirit, soul and body mimic the trinitarian nature of God, making humans unique from the rest of God’s creation, read the chapter “Me, myself and I” in our book “Dissociation: The Forgotten Factor in Healing” by Peter Toth, available on Amazon everywhere as an e book or paperback. Also from our website, www.anazao.com.au]

To an extent this is self evident. You can’t think back and dwell on a deeply traumatic event for any length of time, an event you can recall - such as the death of a loved one - without, once again, feeling sadness, grief and loss and even heartache; your heart physically aching. It is a spirit, soul and body experience.

Here is a detailed third trimester example:

A woman complains of a sore middle back that aches acutely from time to time. She is 40 and it has been an issue for the last three decades.

Talking to dissociative parts related to the source of the pain, we arrive at a memory where she tightly constricted and it is dark. She senses she is in the womb late in the third trimester. She feels anxious because her mother is emotionally upset with her father. Her mother is driving the car and there is a sense of foreboding she feeling in the womb.

All of a sudden there is a crash and the client experiences a sharp pain across the middle of her back. Her distracted mother has failed to brake in time and rear-ended the car in front. The steering wheel hit her mother hard in the middle of her very pregnant belly.

In late pregnancy the head of the baby is normally engaged against the cervix and the back of the baby is facing the front of the belly with only a thin layer of skin for protection. The pain the client was experiencing right then, was quite strong and completely in context with what she was sensing in the trauma.

This memory was totally a surprise. She checked with her mother who confirmed, embarrassingly, that this incident had occurred as she described. Her daughter’s emotional evaluation of what was happening with her mother was also accurate.

After the daughter had found where Jesus was in the memory, and she forgave her mother, breaking soul ties and asking Jesus to lift off any residue pain, she was totally healed.

The client also now realised why she frequently felt slightly uneasy and hypervigilant as a passenger when her mother was driving, even though her mother was a good driver, without further accidents.

This is a clear example of a baby in the womb’s ability to accurately access the spiritual and emotional environment around her, and her own responses to that environment, as well as experiencing the physical pain. In addition, it shows decision making ability. In this case a vow that “I am not safe in the car when my mother is driving so I will always be extra alert. I can’t relax.”

Once the vow was repented of, being a passenger with her mother was a pleasant experience. More about womb vows in Womb Memories Part 5.

In part 3, we will look at the most common womb experiences.

03/10/2024

Womb Memories Part 1

In the 25 years we have been counselling people, focusing on dissociative memories, some of the most insightful memories have been when a client goes back to a trauma in the womb. Early on we soon realised that the self-awareness of a baby in the first trimester was exactly the same as the third trimester. In other words, the baby’s ability to sense what is happening in her surroundings, including the emotional state of her mother and what is happening outside the womb is highly developed in the first trimester. In fact, what I share next may shock you. It appears that the ability to feel emotions and think is either present at conception or very soon after.

How can that be since the baby is little more than a single cell or group of cells? It is because thought and emotions are a product of the soul; mind, will and emotions. Our soul is non-physical. It is not made up of atoms. There are no physical structures necessary to ‘think’ or ‘feel emotions.’ Since God imparts the spirit and soul into that single cell at or soon after conception, it should not surprise us that clients recover detailed memories in the womb where they are highly lucid, emotional, and have uncanny spiritual insights into what is happening in their mother’s and future family’s life.

No, this is not transference or superimposing the current self-awareness of the client onto the baby in the womb event. When trying to connect with a past trauma where the person was known to have been unconscious, there is a complete absence of any self-awareness when trying to access any possible memories during the time of unconsciousness. Dissociative alters or 'parts' cannot be formed in a state of unconsciousness. Hence if the child in the womb was 'unconscious', there is no possibility of forming parts and consequently accessing a womb memory .

This is yet again another proof for the Christian worldview being the best description of reality compared to an evolutionary world view. In an evolutionary world view, the brain gives rise to thought and emotions. No brain, no thoughts. Complete unconsciousness.

In a Christian worldview, soul and spirit exist independent of the brain but operate predominantly through the brain. Aside from being the only adequate explanation for thought and feelings in the womb without brain structures, it also explains how people can have a fully self-aware, out-of-body experience, particularly when they are near death, often on an operating table, entirely independent of the brain.

Of course, it is the reason why Christians, and other religions, believe in life after death because “who” I fundamentally am – that is my spirit and soul – is independent of my brain. “I” leave when the body can no longer function.

It’s a no brainer!

26/03/2024

An Argument for the Resurrection

It's Easter and the celebration of the greatest miracle of all time: the resurrection of Jesus.

I read the excerpt below many years ago as a teenager and it had big impact on me. I came across it again just last week and I still find it very powerful. It is from a sermon by James Francis in 1926 called “One Solitary Life,”

“He was born in an obscure village, the child of a peasant. He grew up in another village, where he worked in a carpenter shop until he was 30. Then, for three years, he was an itinerant preacher.

"He never wrote a book. He never held an office. He never had a family or owned a home. He didn’t go to college. He never lived in a big city. He never travelled 200 miles from the place where he was born. He did none of the things that usually accompany greatness. He had no credentials but himself.

"He was only 33 when the tide of public opinion turned against him. His friends ran away. One of them denied him. He was turned over to his enemies and went through the mockery of a trial. He was nailed to a cross between two thieves. While he was dying, his executioners gambled for his garments, the only property he had on earth. When he was dead, he was laid in a borrowed grave, through the pity of a friend.

"Twenty centuries have come and gone, and today he is the central figure of the human race. All the navies that ever sailed, all the parliaments that ever sat, all the kings that ever reigned—put together—have not affected the life of man on this earth as much as that one, solitary life.”

His life is so pivotal that today's date, 2024, is measurement of time passed since his birth. Over 30% of the world's population follow him exclusively and he is mentioned directly or indirectly 109 times in the Quran which makes up a further 25%. Even the non-religious, who add another 15%, will call out his name when they are stressed, surprised or in trouble, often in anger (watch any movie today!) and there is no other person in history whose name is used in that manner.

Yet why? Why is he in the hearts, in the minds and on the lips of 70% of the people alive today? What makes this one solitary life so unique? Many others have lived, preached profound messages, performed supernatural acts and died so what makes him not first among equals but in a class all of his own?

The singular defining difference that separates this man’s life from all others is his resurrection from the dead. If there was no resurrection, how could this man be the most influential person who ever lived? There simply is no other explanation.

Logically then, he is alive today. God, in fact. As close as a prayer.

Happy Easter

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