03/05/2022
It’s been a while!
You may or may not have noticed I’ve been a little absent on here.
Thought it was time to share what’s been happening.
This year I was diagnosed with ADHD. After plenty of research I was 99% sure that I would be diagnosed but somehow it didn’t make it easier for me to navigate.
I’ve always been really open about any mental health struggles I’ve had, after years and years of being treated for anxiety and depression. But this one felt/feels different for me.
My son was diagnosed a couple of years ago and not once did it make me think any differently of him. Though for me there’s been a big internal struggle of being ok with it, still working on that one.
On my diagnosis I was told I’m at a level that would greatly benefit from medication 💊. So after some trial and error I’ve landed on a medication that works well.
The part of the diagnosis that felt good was an understanding and explanation for all the things that were a major struggle for me. The constant feeling of never being able to keep up with everything on my plate, of a consistently messy, chaotic house, of always being the last mum to send in the kids notes for school, the missing library books, not having milk in the morning for breakfast because I’d gotten carried away with something else and forgotten, the early morning trips to Kmart for socks for kids to go to school because I couldn’t find any or had fallen behind on washing again. All the things, all the things I felt so much shame around, all the things I felt judged on.
The massive lack of knowledge around what ADHD actually is and how it shows up in women meant that I didn’t get diagnosed until 40! And only then got diagnosed because I advocated for myself and went to the Dr explaining why I thought this may be what’s going on.
This meant for years of being treated for anxiety and depression, the underlying cause of these was undiagnosed ADHD.
I have so much more to say on it but I won’t bore you with the details, just know I’m still here, I’m ok, and I’m just trying to navigate my way through this along with my first ever year at University 🤯
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