28/04/2026
Your 40th birthday today. A milestone you always spoke about. One you were going to celebrate in the biggest way 🌻🌻.
And here I am, missing you in all of it.
I miss you in the big moments, but even more in the small ones.
I miss sharing my feelings and my worries with you.
I miss sending outfits.
I miss our conversations.
I miss your handwritten cards (I've thankfully kept most of those over the years).
I miss our wines together.
I miss the arguing like sisters do.
I miss the complaining.
I miss sending you photos of the kids.
I miss you every single day, San.
I’m still finding my way without you. Most days feel a little lost, but grief has taught me things I know will guide me forward.
I hope wherever you are, you’re celebrating properly with endless bubbles, kaas broodjes and cheesecake.
Happy 40th 🤍