29/11/2023
This trip was important. Knowing it was approaching got me through some incredibly low and exhausting days this year. This was a week of landing slowly; of finding rest in the unrest of the past two years. The relief of not setting an alarm, not checking a baby monitor, not having to tend to anyone but myself. In the lead up to this trip, I had to remind myself that I was worthy of this time. I didn’t need to “earn” or “deserve” it. My worth has been with me this whole time, long before becoming a mother. And while motherhood is a big part of my identity now, it’s not the only part. Thank you, Thailand, for this reminder. Today, I found this beautiful poem about worthiness that speaks profoundly to me in this season of life:
There is a wholeness that’s already mine.
It’s already ours.
I am not just the seed,
I am the rain that waters the flower.
It’s a reality that’s already there,
That I am enough.
I take on faith
That wholeness is already mine,
That I need do nothing to deserve,
That my worthiness is based only on my being.
I am wise enough to let go,
And I am strong enough to remember the truth
Of who I really am.
I can encounter the world
In such a way
That I remember who I am.
I am the rest inside the unrest.
I am the depth of the sky,
And the light piercing the sea.
I am the crest of a wave.
All that I need to be,
I am.
There is no problem to solve in this moment.
There is no plan to make,
No failure to be feared,
No other place to be.
This moment is enough.
This place is enough.
This imperfection is enough.
I am patient enough for my life to unfold in divine timing.
I feel the fullness of my life in this moment.
I feel the richness of my life in this space.
I am loved beyond thought,
And I have nothing to prove.
There is no one to impress.
I receive the message
That being is enough.
I am wise enough to see magic through a child’s eyes.
I am resilient enough to see past the pain.
I am kind enough to realize
That my worth has been with me
This whole time.
Beyond the shadows
That I have created,
The message remains:
I am the same.
I have always been enough,
Simply by being here.
Simply by being.
🇹🇭 ✌️ ❤️ 🥥 🏝️
