27/07/2025
Cheers to Dry July! A reflection on why I quit drinking! 🥂 After years of being surrounded by alcohol I made the decision that i was done. This choice was about breaking generational patterns and redefining my relationship with myself and my happiness. Not so much about choosing sobriety but choosing to stay clear and raise my frequency! Our liver is connected to our third eye- a healthy liver enhances our vision. 😉
The truth is, I didn’t even enjoy alcohol! Not even the taste! It was during my third spiritual awakening that I realized this no longer held a place in my life. For years, going on and off it, with months passing between drinks. But the catalyst for my decision came from recognizing how alcohol numbed my shame, and heightened my anxiety.
Drinking for me, felt as if a false sense of self filled my body, opening me up to all I was suppressing, and erupting out in ways I didn’t like.
It became a way for me to dull my personality, a way of fitting in and to escape the pain I didn’t know I was feeling; Whilst inflicting more pain. I thought I loved getting dressed up and going out, but did I really enjoy it? No. It often felt like a pressure cooker of societal expectations to let loose and have fun. What kind of life was I living that I needed to numb out and get drunk?
Looking back on those nights out, filled with big smiles and laughter, I realize it was all so surface-level. Alcohol fueled my social anxiety, leaving me to stew post night out, overthinking everything- every conversation or behaviour. I struggled to form deeper connections with friends, as everything felt superficial and lacking in genuine depth.
One night at a bar, I chose to take a step back and become an observer. As I looked around, I witnessed the pain in everyone’s field, each person carrying their own deep wounds. It was all so vivid—messy, raw, and profoundly real. Despite being surrounded by people, there was an overwhelming sense of loneliness in the room. Everyone was a stranger, even to themselves; each one grappling with their own struggles. In that moment, something shifted within me, leading me to the place I am today - Alcohol free!
