17/09/2021
Hi all! 3 months ago, my expectations were, at this time being back at work. Surgery done, 8 weeks recovery and BAM back to work! Ha!
Although I have the tick of approval as far as healing from surgery, it's still going to take time. It's very easy to lose strength and fitness when 3 months (and more) you do nothing to very little. As they say 'You dont use it, you lose it.' So now I am in stage 2, and working towards this!
At the same time trying to process A LOT. For me, surgery wasn't just a physical removal but also a removal of old, very deep rooted energy that no longer serves me. And when something is removed from our lives we go through the grieving process. Even though we know what we were holding on to was no good for us, it's still very important to grieve it, a loss is a loss. There is sadness, fear, relief that there is no more suffering, gratitude for what is coming and numbness. To me death (the end from this physical dimension) of anything is an opportunity for newness and growth. Sometimes it is easy to see where this newness is and sometimes it is SO new we can not even fathom what is coming our way or how and what to feel. And that is where I am atm. All I know is I am needing more time and that is hard for me to say but I have decided to give myself as long as I need. It would be unfair to me and to you if I started too soon.
There is SO much going on around us atm, so many opinions about things, a lot of confusion, judgement..... whether it be internally, family circle, community, country, wordly...... it's a hard time for those that are extra sensitive to all this energy. Nothing seems fair, nothing feels balanced.
Although I'm not doing treatments please know you are very welcome to get in contact if things are tough. I'm more than happy to chat, message, eventually have a cuppa. You are not alone. But also know, being alone is not a bad thing either. I tend to be the Hermit when things go out of whack. It can be a little uncomfortable sometimes but I know all the answers I need are already inside, or I trust what is happening to me is happening for me and the clarity and light will come soon.
As always I send loads of love and light, I ask for more sunshine in our lives and if you need to get in touch, please don't hesitate.
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