16/06/2025
1000 AD - I saw this life when I was 26 yrs old (30 yrs ago), during a 10 day meditation retreat (Vipassana). A pirate had caught me, forcing me against my will. I was a very young nun, wandering the Spanish coast, yet to take my vows. The terror and revulsion I felt as I was being forced to go up and down on the pirates p***s startled me back to my body. Yes I actually relived those moments.
I could see and hear the 2 pirates as they had their way with me. There was laughter and banter between the men. I managed to escape back to the nunnery. I 'knew' in that life I killed myself.
A few yrs ago, I looked into that life again. I wanted to know what happened to me. I saw myself in the gardens and kitchens of the nunnery, working hard. Sheer drudgery. I felt so bitter. Such bitterness!! And I ignored the fact that the nuns loved me, looked after me, gave me a home. The bitterness over- whelmed me in that life. Death by my own hand using herbs in my mid fifties as I had, had enough. There was the Su***de, I 'knew' I'd had in that life.
2 yrs ago, I wanted to know why there was such bitterness by my would be nun. I understood that I didn't get to be a nun (because of the r**e), singing in choirs with other nuns, living with God, doing charity work for others. An easier life than the kitchen drudgery! I couldn't account for the bitterness.
So I asked for my soul fragments to be brought back to me, using the Andromedans. Next post will be how. I had no idea what to expect or what would happen (if anything!)
Amazingly, I found myself back in the nunnery. I was out in the gardens, breeze blowing, sun on my skin, with bees buzzing and the fragrant flowers and herbs all about me. I could hear the Andromedans saying how lovely it was, that I was safe within the walls of the church, with people who truly loved me, growing the food that we ate. That I could join in with the singing whenever I wanted. The hard work cooking and cleaning kept me fit, healthy, constantly moving, active. I was sitting at home physically but my mind was in 1000 AD, re-living that life.
As the Andromedans spoke, as I was feeling, smelling, hearing that life, the bitterness faded. I agreed with them, that I was safe, protected, fed, warm, healthy, could join in with the singing and I knew! Knew that I was loved by Mother Superior and my fellow nuns, who were my friends. As I agreed and truly 'saw and felt', the dreadful bitter feelings disappeared. That life was literally shifting and changing before my eyes. Dropping resistance and accepting the goodness of that life in 2023!
Because I had literally changed the feelings of that life 1000AD in the 'now' of 2023, it shifted my 'timeline'. The Andromedans next showed me who the pirate was. He had turned up at the church and village at least 4 times I saw, during that life. He wanted to see me but the Mother Superior would not allow it. I was puzzled, thinking it was strange. Zooming in on the older pirate, he shifted his stance, I saw his true face and I knew exactly who it was in this lifetime!
Boy was that a shock!