25/07/2017
To all of my beautiful Yogi's ..
It is with a sad but open and vulnerable heart that I have decided its time to take a break from teaching Yoga.
I feel like as a teacher, it is my responsibility to listen to that inner intuition and feeling that my body and mind are crying out to me and have been for a while now to rest, respite, re energise and find inspiration within to get clear on the next chapter of my teachng journey.
It is also my responsibility to be raw, to be honest and vulnerable to not hide away in my little comfortable life and to share with you what im going through.
I am tired, my tank is half full and I am very much feeling the aftermath of a huge trauma I experienced in Bali in May.
My energy hasn't quite been the same, ptsd is a serious thing and its something I am dealing with gradually and intuitively. I thought i was fine (as most people do who have experienced trauma for sometime after) but alas! I am not. I am human, I am struggling and its ok to be so.
I know my mat, is where i need to be right now, alone, still... with my breath and the trauma. This is what will heal me, that and sharing.. talking and not holding it in when i feel i need to talk and letting my emotions flow, when they need to.. and to not be ashamed to do so.. yes if tears in heaven or travellin soldier come on while im in coles trying to get the best avocado and theyre all hard im probably going to cry and im not going to be ashamed for doing so 😂😪😪
Life is beauty, life is pain, and life is everywhere in between.. its colour and its grey, its god damned awful and its so beautifully sweet. Its everything i could have ever wanted and imagined.. and I am so glad and so grateful and equally pi**ed off at myself for choosing to come to earth at this time! Such polarity.. so hard and yet so worth it.
To all of the Yogis who have come to my classes over the past three years, the ones who despite the cold, the dark or the sh*tty day, chose to come to our classes to create magic and flow together.. you are all the epitome of courage and i thank you.
With every inch of my heart and soul i thank you.
You have taught me more than you will ever know, your light was my flame in the darkest of days. You inspired me to be a better teacher..
I am SO proud of your commitment to your practices and its been nothing short of exquisitely magical to watch your hearts and bodies burst open.. in your own times.
I love you, I love you, I love you..
I cannot wait to be back in our heart space teaching you again..
But for now I must rest.
I am, because you are..
Namaste beautiful Souls 🙏🏻❤️⭐️
