
25/09/2025
Having recovered from addiction, I had no idea what to focus on, so I did what I knew and focussed on losing weight.
But this year, that approach failed me due to a myriad of health issues , and so in yet another form of recovery, I had to challenge my own beliefs (that being slim was my goal) and I kept going to the gym even though I was gaining weight and my gut and spine felt like they were on fire most of the time. I kept going because I realised I want to age with strength, mobility, balance and stability.
I don’t take as many selfies as I did when I was slimmer.. and I intentionally don’t look in the mirror as often.
Which is maybe why I didn’t notice how much my body has changed over the last few months of consistent effort. Not only are my shoulders, arms, chest different, but my spine is straighter. See how my right shoulder is dropping in the top pic? That’s my scoliosis.
At the gym, I do the Pilates and tone class, and a few days a week I lift weights.
Honestly, I’m awkward there. I trip over my own feet, I lose my balance, I slip off the equipment. Sometimes I gotta put the weights down and just do the actions in class, and I move slowly. Like super slow. And I just keep going anyway.
Because, I choose life.
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