18/02/2026
When my youngest started school 2 weeks ago, I didn’t expect to feel what I felt. I spent the first week shocked
He’s been with me every step of the way for the past 6 years. Born during lockdown, growing up loving his own company, comfortable at home and no kinder. I had cleared my work schedule that week for what I thought would be long, emotional mornings.
But 30 minutes into his first day, when it was time to leave, he high fived us goodbye. I got up from the floor and walked out, stood outside the classroom with Matt completely stunned, then realised I’d left my handbag in the classroom and had to duck back in, and still, he was happy there with the lego, so off we went.
Not even 2 minutes down the road, Matt asked, “What would you like to do today?” and I felt the tears surfacing. I was used to having my little sidekick with me and my days revolving around him, and suddenly, this next chapter felt so official.
So I spent the first week enjoying the space and lots of gratitude for all the moments that I recalled over the past 9 years where I never missed a special moment of these early years with them. These years at home were full, exhausting at times, with sleep deprivation and juggling all the hats life demanded.
But the transition has been so special.
Prior to having children I did a lot of personal development and identity work. Becoming a Mum took me by surprise. I had plans to be the working Mumma and Matt to be the stay at home Dad but once those pregnancy hormones kicked in, I was a changed woman.
During those early years of motherhood, my identity shifted in ways I hadn’t expected. Before children, health, fitness and personal growth were strong anchors for me, but motherhood asked me to soften my expectations and honour the season I was in.
There were times balance felt hard to find and instead of striving for who I used to be, I learned to meet myself where I was, doing what I could, with what I had, while still staying connected to growth in new and evolving ways.
In those years, life didn’t slow down like I initially thought it would. Instead, it expanded me.
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