03/07/2023
These beliefs have been feeding into my unworthiness factor and driving the majority of my experience for the past 27 years!
Last year I started to re-member the trauma of my menarche and the introduction into the first few years of my menstruating journey and how these beliefs that somehow I was faulty, set me up for a life of severe disconnect.
As I rejected myself by rejecting my body, I got further away from the one thing I craved the most. Connection!
Connection to mySelf, to God and to the natural world around me.
Only when I was started Connecting back in with my menstrual cycle 3 years ago, have I really started to heal. Sure I had done a lot of the subconscious work through the Mind but the Human part of me was yearning to be acknowledged.
As I began cycle tracking and syncing, my eyes were opened to the Truth and I really began to integrate all of my healing into this physical experience. And it has only expanded since then.
Last year during my yoga teacher training, it was the very first time that I remember ever feeling safe enough and happy enough to simply be in my body 😭 just writing this is making me cry.
It took me 38 years to finally know who I am and to love and accept all of me. To begin to realise that I was NEVER broken, there was NEVER anything wrong with me and that I CAN trust myself and my body! That being in this body can be a beautiful and incredible experience.
Suffice to say at 12 / 13 years of age, I was ill informed, uneducated and unsupported. I didn't have a group of women around me helping me into my Becoming..... did you?
The narrative I was taught was one of shame.... thus I'm here to
