08/01/2026
I AM NOT THE TENSION ITSELF: Meditation Journal Entry
During meditation, I tuned into the muscles in my face when I realised they were tense. I sensed that who I am is that which is witnessing the tension; I am not the tension itself.
I wondered: what is the thing creating tension?
What animates my body in such a way that it can contort the muscles in my face?
Is it life force? Consciousness? Soul?
Are all of these the same thing?
When I am dead, the thing that animates my body will not be present to contort the muscles in my face.
Where does it go?
Does it go to another face in another time?
Does it go back to where it came from?
Where did it come from?
Perhaps it doesn’t originate from anywhere because it is omnipresent?
But how can it be omnipresent once the time comes to remove itself from this body and end the dance of this temporary, miraculous life?
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Written by Lisa McLean on Thursday 8 January 2026
Image: Photo of graffiti in an abandoned bunker in Utö, Finland by
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