23/05/2025
I was thinking about this as I laid on the couch this afternoon, doing very little (despite the to do list being long).
It used to be the case that I was wired to jump if there was any risk I’d be ‘caught’ resting. I had rest conflated with laziness and, ultimately, the belief that people wouldn’t like me if I wasn’t constantly busy proving my worth.
Exhausting.
Even now, I’m actually not that great at resting in a traditional sense - you’ll pretty much never find me napping (and I’m currently being assessed for adhd, so that could explain it!).
What I am much better at these days is reading my own body and knowing when it’s time to slow down, reduce the input/output, and take a flippin’ break.
I no longer worry about being ‘caught’ (though sometimes a shadow of that will show up) and the freedom of that is real.
This is one of those invisible things you might not realise stands between you and the relationship you want with yourself (and self-care). These hidden patterns can run your life, your narrative and your identity … and they can run you into exhaustion and resentment.
If you’d like support to work through it, I’d be so honoured to do that with you. I have just a few spots available for counselling 1-1. DM to chat and see if it could be the right fit for you 😊