17/05/2026
I've been thinking about you. Not in a general way. In the specific way. Wondering where you actually are right now. Not the version you present at school pickup or in the work meeting or when someone asks how you're going and you say fine because it's easier.
The real version. The one sitting with her cacao going cold because she got lost in a thought she doesn't have words for yet.
I wonder, where are you not choosing yourself?
Can you ask yourself, not with harsh judgement, but genuine curiosity. The way you would ask a woman you love, who wears a smile you can see beneath.
Because here is what I see, time and time again, in the women I work with and in the world around me.
The quiet erasure.
The voice dimmed before it has even formed into words.
The body speaking loudly in the only language it has left while the mind keeps convincing her everything is fine.
Your body knows before your mind catches up.
And this season, more than most, is asking you to listen.
Not to fix anything or everything, or overhaul your life before breakfast. To notice. To let what has been waiting beneath the surface finally come up for air.
That noticing is where everything begins.
The choosing is where transformation happens.
I wonder what may surface if you were to ask yourself, honestly: where am I dimming my light? Where have I not spoken out of fear? Where am I accepting something that is not actually mine to accept?
Allowing the answer to surface. Not managing it. Not editing it into something more comfortable.
Letting it be seen.
If something in you has been stirring, if you feel a threshold approaching and can't quite name what it's asking, stay close.
Feel free to comment or send me a message. And share with the women you love who seem to be holding more behind the 'I'm fine' mask.
Chelsea x