From Mess to Success: Journal of the Formerly Depressed

From Mess to Success: Journal of the Formerly Depressed Journey from depression and anxiety to success.

23/09/2025

Tonight is a night I know, without a doubt, I will not sleep well.

Early tomorrow morning I will have my hysterectomy surgery. Everything is in place support wise, everything is paid, my children are cared for...yet my anxiety is sky high. My psychologist and my care team say this is normal, and my heart desperately wants to give myself grace and relax a little. My brain is in overdrive.

Instead of fighting my natural urge to worry, I had a nap and will cook, clean, wash clothes and bedding all night until I crash. I have set 2 alarms so I don't sleep in. I will pack everything except the clothes I want to wear and my medication.

Tomorrow morning I will shower, get ready, drive to my children's father's house, and he and Deakin will drive me to surgery. This surgery will change my life, and is positive. Still, my heart is racing and my brain is overthinking.

Of course, I will update you all once I'm able,

Be kind, and know you are loved ❣️

16/09/2025
16/09/2025

As surgery approaches I find myself incredibly anxious. Yesterday I ate what I wanted, not what was the best choice, and today I pay the price with lethargy, fatigue, brain fog, and mood swings. This is not ideal when you're a Mum to 2 kids in their last week of term 3.

So today I regroup.

I give myself grace to feel sad for the loss of my days of having a healthy-ish reproductive system; for the time I'll lose with my kids, friends and family/in my business/enjoying my life; for the time I'm taking out of my training program to concentrate on one part of my health; for the independence I'll lose needing someone to care for me and the kids whilst I can't drive.

I prioritise research on meal prep, getting the kids in a self reliant routine morning and night, cleaning the house, and finalising business items with deadlines that cannot wait.

I allow myself to cry. I give myself time to be sad, frustrated, anxious, irritated, and perplexed about life in general and my life moving forward.

I remind myself that it's healthy not to have it all together all of the time. Life ebbs and flows, and so do emotions.

Tomorrow will be a better day. Today is for organising and feeling. Tomorrow is for doing.

As always, love yourself in all walks, especially when things are tough ❤️

It has been a red hot minute since I posted, and so much has happened so let me catch you up:* We've moved, not once but...
12/09/2025

It has been a red hot minute since I posted, and so much has happened so let me catch you up:

* We've moved, not once but twice. Firstly we moved from the home our family was last together. Whilst that was helpful, it wasn't as therapeutic as I had hoped, and the universe placed obstacles in the way to ensure we got the message to move again:
- there was regular DV in our street;
- I was attacked by a dog when I tried to save someone who had also been attacked, both of us survived but the dog was later sent to God;
- someone threw a rock at my daughter's window and left the rock at my front door.
- we've been here over a year and it feels like home.
* My kids are growing up so quickly - my son is now 14 and growing into the beautiful man I always knew he would be, my daughter has a fire in her soul and her 8yo brain is still learning to control when it comes out so it's appropriate. They are so beautiful ❤️
* Our business is doing well with support, coaching and mentoring, albeit slow due to unforeseen complications, which leads me to
* Surgery
- on 24th September. I had an endometrial ablation in 2021 and I now have a period, fibroids, and need a hysterectomy. I'll be in hospital for a few nights;
- I tore some ligaments in my ankle December 2023 and had surgical repair in September last year. Seems the September school holidays are good for surgeries in our house 😂;
- my daughter had appendicitis during a cruise last year and had it removed surgically. It was not the Christmas we had hoped for, but it was relaxing and we did spend quality time together.
* Friends and Family are doing great! There have been changes along the way - people come and go in and out of my life for a reason. I may not know what that reason is, but there's always a reason. I trust the people who need to stay will, and I have a village I love and who love us.
* Health
- my mental health couldn't be better at this stage. Whilst I have fluctuations in my.moids, I know they are coming and can prepare myself for them. I have also started a garden and journalling to keep my mind clear and my hands busy;
- whilst I haven't lost any weight, the journalling helps me make better choices for my food, fluid intake, and movement. I'm looking forward to this next 12 months;
- I have the right support network to get to my goals, which is to complete a triathlon before my birthday in late May 2030. I have a nutritionist, PT/life coach, psychologist, GP, and will be engaging specialist coaches for swimming and sports psychology later.
* I have a heart to learn. This has been the biggest lesson for me. I've learnt to deal with some major trauma, one that I built my identity around from a young age, and I grow as I move forward with what I want my life to be. I'm constantly learning to be kinder to myself, which can be difficult.

Life hasn't been all roses, but the thorns have taught me where to move. I love my life, warts and all, so you will be seeing regular posts here whether life is good or challenging. It's helped me a lot to work so hard on my mental health. After 2 years I'm finally seeing my growth, wanting to truly live my.life to its fullest capacity.

What have you ALWAYS wanted to do? What are the things you can't live without? How can you be your best self for you and your life? I ask myself these questions every day. I don't always get it right, but I'm learning and growing and giving myself grace toake mistakes and fall short.

I want to leave you with the greatest lesson I have learned so far:

Loving yourself will allow you to love others, so love yourself abundantly. Your cup will overflow ❤️

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