12/05/2026
The last few months have been an absolute whirlwind. I found out I was pregnant early February because I felt incredibly sick and when I went out for my wedding anniversary dinner at all you can eat, I could barely stomach anything, which is very unlike me 😂
And from that moment on, I was basically in bed all day, every day. Outside of client sessions and my kids’ school events, I had almost nothing in me. No energy, no easy days, no relief, no sanity lol. Just trying to get through each day while feeling like my body had completely taken over.
One of the biggest lessons life has tried to teach me over the last decade has been surrender. And honestly, it’s a lesson I’ve resisted for a long time.
I’ve always been someone who pushes through. Who keeps going. Who finds a way to hold everything together even when things feel hard. But this pregnancy has given me no choice except to surrender entirely. To stop fighting my body. To stop trying to force myself to function the way I normally would. To let go of the version of myself that believes rest has to be earned.
And it’s been confronting.
Not just physically, but emotionally too. There’s been grief in it. Guilt. Frustration. Sadness. Self-pity. Moments of feeling disconnected from myself, my work, my kids and the life I usually move through with so much energy and presence.
My previous pregnancies were easy in the beginning, so this experience completely caught me off guard. I kept waiting for it to pass, for things to settle, for me to feel like myself again. And slowly, over the last few weeks, things have started to feel a little lighter.
But I think this season has changed me in ways I’m still processing. It’s reminded me that surrender is not weakness. It’s not giving up. Sometimes surrender is actually the deepest form of trust. Trusting your body when it’s asking you to slow down. Trusting that your worth does not disappear when your productivity does. Trusting that life can still hold you, even when you can’t show up the way you usually do.
And maybe that’s the lesson I’ve been avoiding all along... and maybe that's a lesson you've been avoiding too? 🤍