13/05/2022
Dear Diary
Everyone has dreams - but - what is a dream worth fighting for?
My Angels, tell me - what is YOUR dream worth fighting for? In the comments!!!!!
What if you absolutely KNEW your dream would come true BUT it would not come true for 8 years, would cost you a lot of heartache and would have you on your knees regularly questioning if it would ever happen or be worth it?
I feel so blessed to have achieved a huge dream of mine finally - to own my own home. I may be 40 but f**k. Who cares. I did it.
To have overcome such huge financial crisis and struggle - a story that begins with having to move out of home when I was 18 with little to no savings. So began the story of the credit cards, the student loans, spending beyond my means and to cut a long story short an ongoing financial sh*t-show that ended in bankruptcy when I was 27.
When I met my Hubby it was ironically reassuring but heartbreaking to learn that he was in a similar mess. We were destined to meet - one cuz he is a gorgeous awesome soul that endlessly gives and loves with all his heart (and I’m a bit weird and f**ked up so I needed that) but two because bankruptcy was a huge relief from my debt crisis but it didn’t teach me how to manage my money and I had no good money managing habits. I was in real danger of messing up again because I had a clean slate. The irony of finding someone so awesome and wanting so badly to be with him forever meant I was forced to get in the debt trenches again. But this time - not alone and with a shared vision for a life in which someone else was dependent and invested.
Together we dug ourselves out of a deep and dark hole, with a tiny light at the end of it. Day by day, week by week, year after year, (8 years to be exact) the light at the end of tunnel got bigger and bigger.
Now here we are bathing in that light. I can’t f**king believe it. I own my own home.
Dreams do come true…. but god damn they don’t just ‘happen’ coz you really want them to.
It was a journey full of nasty twists, painful and humbling self realisations, tears and many breakdowns. It was long, tiring, testing and often we wanted to give up.
Proof enough for me though that a dream worth having is a dream worth fighting for.
Tell me. What is your dream worth fighting for?
