15/10/2025
How do you feel, you've been patiently waiting my return. You consumed every ounce of compassion I had to offer and still grumbled for more, not once even contemplating, that my basket needed refilling nown again.
Our connection was merely one sided, you came to me and I was there for you. Willing to assist where ever your wounds were crying out for healing.
You judge me, you punish me, you spoke illy of me behind my back, you thought you had conquered my spirit. You thought you had me exactly where you wanted me. You abuse me, you befriended me, you questioned me.
What you were really doing, as your not the first to step into the ring with me, funny that. You thought you had all the tools you'd ever needed to beat me. In the games you had so cleverly and carefully designed, to trip me up.
Sure you were correct, I do accept everyone at face value and not by the gossip so hap happily running rift. I welcome everyone into my life with my open arms approach, remembering this didn't mean I was weak and desperate for company.
For what you weren't willing to see, was I am very happy in my own company, my space, my energy.
I've been out there in that world everyone thrives in and to say I'm happier away from it, is an understatement.
I have learnt having a big circle of friends is not all its crack up to be. Rather its a minefield of jealous, envious, vengeful, competitive and spiteful entities. Just waiting for an opportunity to strike.
I understand my purpose, my role and my positioning now more than ever.
I've been schooling most of my life and some of the topics I choose, well what can I say. Other than that life has so many challenging topics, none are really easy to navigate.
You may of curse me, threatened me, torn my reputation to shreds with your malious intent and lies. But that says more about you than me.
I use to waste so much time fighting to prove my innocence, only to find I'd sunk lower into the depths you were leading me towards.
Now I couldn't careless, I know the truths and that was the point. Not everyone elses opinion of me, but my own opinion of myself.
I know I am worthy, whether I receive or not, once again says more about others willing to give than about me.
I've lost more people than I was once willing to acknowledge, now I understand why there not. Cause if they were meant to be with me now, they would be, its as simple as that.
I know I've gone above and beyond, I've forgiven more than I should've and allowed more matters to go further than they ever should've. I learnt that boundaries are required and a necessary evil.
I'm a empath, I understand empathetic burnout more than most, but I still get up everyday, looking to the skies for guidance and that I'm grateful for there presence.
Being an empath was once thought to be weak, when in fact its the total opposite.
You have to be strong to be an empath, cause the crap you have to waid through, is mind blowing at times.
So if your an empath, take a breath and pat yourselves on the back.
Cause those you've walk away from, leaving the door wide open to. Is not for you to walk back through. Its for them to see how better off you are without them.
God bless you all.