28/10/2025
Being a therapist doesn’t mean I don’t feel and experience life deeply and often unhinged, overly emotional, and wanting to rage.
What it does mean is that I know how to feel into these places and put myself in my clients’ position. To ask myself the same questions I would ask them. To support my system outside of my mind and really get into the guts of what is happening in my body.
It’s a projection to think that therapists, with all their training, still have their s**t together. Honestly, we don’t. We’re human. We’re still experiencing life and trying to navigate it as best we can with the tools we have in our toolkits. What we do have is experience, and often a bunch of other therapists around us who understand the process and can hold us too. 💓
Today was one of those days where I found myself in a loop.
I knew the pattern. I felt the rage. But I wasn’t able to really express it.
And as a Reflector and a fifth line in Human Design, I often feel people don’t really see the real me, so I battle on, on my own, far further than I should.
I’m learning from this.
I reached out to a friend who also works in somatics because I knew I could just let it all out without censoring or feeling like it was too much for them.
What came from that was relief. It felt good to be seen, to be held, even if only for a moment.
To take my therapist hat off and trust that someone has me too.
To get wild and unbridled and allow the emotions to rage through my body in the most primal of ways.
So here's a truth. I know, deeply, how hard it is to reach out to people.
To ask for help. To not just try to fix it with this, that, or the other.
People say that talk therapy is outdated, yet sometimes being able to truly express and be heard is the therapy. Especially when you already understand what is happening but just want to be witnessed.
All types of therapy are needed, and none are better than another. They all serve a purpose.
So if you’re feeling like you need someone to rage to, to express the deepest and darkest parts of yourself and have that be OK, this space is for you. I AM for you, because...I don’t shrink from the uncomfortable.
I welcome it.
Xx Annie