29/11/2022
After numerous conversations with incredible, courageous women I decided I wanted to be as raw and real as I could be.
I always knew I wanted to be a Mama, never a doubt. Until I more or less became one. This experience has pushed me to my limits, literally my body’s limits. It’s made me question if I’ll get through and if my body was really made to do this. It was and is still really confronting.
I went from experiencing a cycle, a cyclical energetic flow through my body that one day just stopped. All the energy built like a brick wall in my pelvic bowl and it’s sat there since. There’s nothing cyclical about it anymore, no rhyme or reason to the surges in hormones or emotions. So many new things to get used to and they will just keep coming from here on in.
This transition is unlike any other. It’s the most beautiful disruption of every single cell in my body. Every time I see a Mama (whether baby is earth bound or grew wings) I’m in total awe and fall into such sincere admiration. I wonder what their experience was like and how they handled slipping into one of life’s most primitive experiences.
To round this out. I don’t think there is any right or wrong, black or white side to this. It’s all wild, raw and real. I don’t feel bad for my thoughts anymore, I know they are just apart of this journey and are temporary just like this whole thing is.
Mama’s be kind to yourself. This is freakin hard work. 🫶🏽
