15/02/2026
I am J O Y.☀️ - open healing story share. (for those who need or are interested)
I am not healed, but I am intentionally healing.
→ for some of us, to feel the real joy from the depths of the belly and lightness of heart - we need to heal.
it’s taken me 10 fu***ng years to heal the trauma that was blocking my spirit from fully feeling and living joy. 🙏🏼
previously my nervous system would literally sense pure joy as danger.
why?
because, now long time ago, I was in a relationship where I got abused even though I felt love and joy within, the other person was brought up to abuse as a way of showing love.
over time, I’ve been living, healing, loving but deep within I knew there is still more to heal but I didn’t know how to release, let go. 🤷🏼♀️
→ today, at quantum flow, I set intention
‘I am JOY’. ☀️☀️☀️
by the end of the session I had tears in my eyes, I’ve seen that man, my ex husband, right in front of me, through my eyes closed, I felt forgiveness and immense sense of joy in my body.
I thought I fully forgave him long ago, because I never thought bad of him, but clearly I haven’t.
I now know, I have healed this block within, I feel it.
I am joy and I am grateful. ☀️☀️☀️
sadly, this man was shot dead two years ago by the American federal police at the age of 33.
no, I never believed he deserved anything like that, I believed he needed to heal his heart.
rest in peace.
🙏🏼
remember: healing is a journey, persevere, continue to show up, healing takes time. 💫