27/01/2022
ON SELF-CARE
"Most people won't give up on trying to force others to take care of them because they won't forgive their early caretakers for not having done a perfect job. Forgiveness is critical to physical and psychological health. When people can spend more time in the pleasant and lighter experiential continuum than in the miserable semi-darkness of the mind, they are healthier. The primary, fundamental, essential, baseline, critical, lowest-level minimum requirement for happiness, without which there is no other hope, is a willingness to take care of oneself.
The trouble is, people are generally willing to take care of almost anyone or anything else but themselves. They will take care of a car, house, child, job, pet, boss, deadline, spouse, stranger, or any number of people and things on an endless list before they take care of themselves. Repeated observation of this phenomenon has led me to the conclusion that there is a particular unlearning required for human growth to continue beyond adolescence, and most people don't unlearn it. What must be unlearned is the habit of being lost in value judgments that override experience. My teen-aged nephew would rather look cool, while freezing to death waiting for the school bus, than wear a warm jacket that is not as 'in' as the shirt he is wearing. Most people don't grow beyond such adolescent tricks with or without therapy.
Many people are trapped at a certain stage of development, cut off from an essential feedback system that would naturally allow them, to take care of themselves. The feedback system is built into all of us, but we have dissociated ourselves from it. The system requires that we pay attention to excitement in the body, rather than concepts in the mind. We all have the capacity to be aware of various forms of excitement in our bodies, but we don't pay much attention to that because we are too busy thinking and 'shoulding' on ourselves.
For many of us, the older we get, the worse we are at taking care of ourselves. This is partly because we have learned too much about what we should do, and it blocks our ability to live based on what we notice. Rather than attending to what we know we should do, we can pay attention to our bodies—our ongoing bio-feedback system—and operate according to that, rather than our memories of what we learned before."
- Brad Blanton: Radical Honesty